Silence Can Suck

[mlerules]

I've known/felt/stated that I've lost a lot of patience over the past few years. Don't know whether I had been too patient before and/or am currently too impatient. My sense of time's not always the same as other folks'...and different folks have different ways of dealing with, marking, noticing time's flow anyway.

Dang. I'm thinking thoughts but not writing 'em out. Impatient w/high school nonsense, even when - ESPECIALLY when - it's MY nonsense. Is it better to err on the side of waiting too long or perhaps being/seeming impatient? I can think of instances (well, at least one) where hurrying up did NOT work out well (led to opposite effect from that desired, in fact). So, unless I just cannot stand it any longer - and I'm not there yet - it's prolly better to wait and see. Impetuousness ain't wise. The question then becomes how much more should/shall/will I pour into the well, waiting for a splash, before I give up and move on? Hmm. Methinks there're several intermediate steps before then. Thus, consideration of related questions concerning the tack to take, the tone to adopt, the right note to play...sigh. Don't wanna play games. All r-ships require a certain amount of something: dancing? INTERaction, certainly. Too sleepy to decide/figure out how now.

Not bugging me too much, just wondering.

For now though...sleep.

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But first...a bit more. CBA = Cost Benefit Analysis. Okay, no...too tired to continue now.

'Twas a busy eve of house-hunting. No, not for me. Dear Friend LJ-less L from PHX has been looking at places for the past 1.5 weeks. The hubby arrives o'morrow afternoon from PHX to meet w/the realtor and look at the top choice selections. It'd be swell if'n this were to work out and she/they'd be local! *crosses fingers*

Comments

[shutt3rg33k.livejournal.com]

Ah, that thin, wavy line between compromise, concession and playing games. Yuck. *hugs*

[mlerules.livejournal.com]

Thx. Well stated.

[stacymckenna.livejournal.com]

I hate that "to wait or not to wait" dillemma. Inevitably it feels I finally give up and move on just a smige too early, or hang on long after it would have been healthy to move on. Would love some sort of consistent cosmic sign to let me know when required patience and when required action...

[mlerules.livejournal.com]

Yeah. I've been consciously working on trying to improve my judgment and use/recognize my intuition along such lines, but I don't feel comfie at all 'bout it yet. Luckily what I HAVE been able to accomplish is vastly reducing my incidence 'n' duration of freak-out 'n' worry when I haven't heard from someone w/in a certain period o' time. I'm learning to back off before investing so much that even if'n t'other person responds there's such a tremendous outflow of energy/time/self that regaining/creating balance is nigh on impossible.

[bnsa.livejournal.com]

*HUGS*

[mlerules.livejournal.com]

thx

[redefining-self.livejournal.com]

Patience is a trial. I've noticed a distinct lack of patience in my own life in the last month or so (others noticed the disappearance a couple of months back).

Like you I find myself forcing myself into patience at times. Trying to distract myself from what ever it is that's making me feel impatient. Typically waiting for communication from friends in some way. I have no right to be impatient with any of my friends.

Subsequently I've noticed that my perception of time has increased. I'm acutely aware of the fact that it's only been about 48 hours or so that my emotional sanity has returned. And it seems like forever since that enjoyable camping/triathlon excursion.

Guess I'm saying I feel your discomfort.