Silence Can Suck
May. 23rd, 2007 12:58 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
mlerulesI've known/felt/stated that I've lost a lot of patience over the past few years. Don't know whether I had been too patient before and/or am currently too impatient. My sense of time's not always the same as other folks'...and different folks have different ways of dealing with, marking, noticing time's flow anyway.
Dang. I'm thinking thoughts but not writing 'em out. Impatient w/high school nonsense, even when - ESPECIALLY when - it's MY nonsense. Is it better to err on the side of waiting too long or perhaps being/seeming impatient? I can think of instances (well, at least one) where hurrying up did NOT work out well (led to opposite effect from that desired, in fact). So, unless I just cannot stand it any longer - and I'm not there yet - it's prolly better to wait and see. Impetuousness ain't wise. The question then becomes how much more should/shall/will I pour into the well, waiting for a splash, before I give up and move on? Hmm. Methinks there're several intermediate steps before then. Thus, consideration of related questions concerning the tack to take, the tone to adopt, the right note to play...sigh. Don't wanna play games. All r-ships require a certain amount of something: dancing? INTERaction, certainly. Too sleepy to decide/figure out how now.
Not bugging me too much, just wondering.
For now though...sleep.
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But first...a bit more. CBA = Cost Benefit Analysis. Okay, no...too tired to continue now.
'Twas a busy eve of house-hunting. No, not for me. Dear Friend LJ-less L from PHX has been looking at places for the past 1.5 weeks. The hubby arrives o'morrow afternoon from PHX to meet w/the realtor and look at the top choice selections. It'd be swell if'n this were to work out and she/they'd be local! *crosses fingers*
Dang. I'm thinking thoughts but not writing 'em out. Impatient w/high school nonsense, even when - ESPECIALLY when - it's MY nonsense. Is it better to err on the side of waiting too long or perhaps being/seeming impatient? I can think of instances (well, at least one) where hurrying up did NOT work out well (led to opposite effect from that desired, in fact). So, unless I just cannot stand it any longer - and I'm not there yet - it's prolly better to wait and see. Impetuousness ain't wise. The question then becomes how much more should/shall/will I pour into the well, waiting for a splash, before I give up and move on? Hmm. Methinks there're several intermediate steps before then. Thus, consideration of related questions concerning the tack to take, the tone to adopt, the right note to play...sigh. Don't wanna play games. All r-ships require a certain amount of something: dancing? INTERaction, certainly. Too sleepy to decide/figure out how now.
Not bugging me too much, just wondering.
For now though...sleep.
****
But first...a bit more. CBA = Cost Benefit Analysis. Okay, no...too tired to continue now.
'Twas a busy eve of house-hunting. No, not for me. Dear Friend LJ-less L from PHX has been looking at places for the past 1.5 weeks. The hubby arrives o'morrow afternoon from PHX to meet w/the realtor and look at the top choice selections. It'd be swell if'n this were to work out and she/they'd be local! *crosses fingers*
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Date: 2007-05-23 06:07 pm (UTC)Like you I find myself forcing myself into patience at times. Trying to distract myself from what ever it is that's making me feel impatient. Typically waiting for communication from friends in some way. I have no right to be impatient with any of my friends.
Subsequently I've noticed that my perception of time has increased. I'm acutely aware of the fact that it's only been about 48 hours or so that my emotional sanity has returned. And it seems like forever since that enjoyable camping/triathlon excursion.
Guess I'm saying I feel your discomfort.