Looking Back
Sep. 2nd, 2022 11:31 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
mlerulesI've got a big bday coming up. A friend from way-back got in touch w/recently - it's a big part of why I still like FB; folks can/do keep in touch - and it was really nice to reconnect, even if just a bit. So, I reached out earlier this evening to another friend from long-ago. He'll likely get back to me eventually. We've seen each other on and off over the decades and have emailed some the past few years.
Then I Googled another person who'd mattered lots to me for a time, only to find a couple of obits from nearly 20 years ago (2003). They didn't even mention what'd been one of his big passions, at least when I first knew him (music). I still have his phone # memorized. I shared some great moments w/him, when I was at an impressionable age. Parts of one afternoon in particular were filmed on Super-8, and I always assumed one day I'd get to see it. Well, that ain't gonna happen. But I will see the 3rd person from that memorable day late next week, and I'll share the memory w/her.
I'm left bereft. Tears're falling. I know people disappear from our lives. Folks fade. Memories remain...for a time anyway. But to find that this person'd died and I had no idea...it hurts more than expected. It doesn't help that I found out earlier this year that another person from that group and time of my life had passed away several years back.
Well, I ain't gonna dwell too much or too long. I am taking some time to grieve.
Listening to music tonight. Feeling lots of feels. Time for bed shortly...
Then I Googled another person who'd mattered lots to me for a time, only to find a couple of obits from nearly 20 years ago (2003). They didn't even mention what'd been one of his big passions, at least when I first knew him (music). I still have his phone # memorized. I shared some great moments w/him, when I was at an impressionable age. Parts of one afternoon in particular were filmed on Super-8, and I always assumed one day I'd get to see it. Well, that ain't gonna happen. But I will see the 3rd person from that memorable day late next week, and I'll share the memory w/her.
I'm left bereft. Tears're falling. I know people disappear from our lives. Folks fade. Memories remain...for a time anyway. But to find that this person'd died and I had no idea...it hurts more than expected. It doesn't help that I found out earlier this year that another person from that group and time of my life had passed away several years back.
Well, I ain't gonna dwell too much or too long. I am taking some time to grieve.
Listening to music tonight. Feeling lots of feels. Time for bed shortly...
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Date: 2022-09-03 05:13 pm (UTC)I feel for you and your loss of that formerly dear friend. It's a real shame when folks require people take sides in a divorce, and in this case, really too bad getting "broken up with" by a friend (especially in public). I've maintained good rships with most friends I've had, even if'n we've drifted apart. I'm also on good terms with nearly all my ex's, although one, who now lives within an hour, dropped me unexpectedly a year or two before. I don't know why...and actually don't care much these days. His loss.