Looking Back
Sep. 2nd, 2022 11:31 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
mlerulesI've got a big bday coming up. A friend from way-back got in touch w/recently - it's a big part of why I still like FB; folks can/do keep in touch - and it was really nice to reconnect, even if just a bit. So, I reached out earlier this evening to another friend from long-ago. He'll likely get back to me eventually. We've seen each other on and off over the decades and have emailed some the past few years.
Then I Googled another person who'd mattered lots to me for a time, only to find a couple of obits from nearly 20 years ago (2003). They didn't even mention what'd been one of his big passions, at least when I first knew him (music). I still have his phone # memorized. I shared some great moments w/him, when I was at an impressionable age. Parts of one afternoon in particular were filmed on Super-8, and I always assumed one day I'd get to see it. Well, that ain't gonna happen. But I will see the 3rd person from that memorable day late next week, and I'll share the memory w/her.
I'm left bereft. Tears're falling. I know people disappear from our lives. Folks fade. Memories remain...for a time anyway. But to find that this person'd died and I had no idea...it hurts more than expected. It doesn't help that I found out earlier this year that another person from that group and time of my life had passed away several years back.
Well, I ain't gonna dwell too much or too long. I am taking some time to grieve.
Listening to music tonight. Feeling lots of feels. Time for bed shortly...
Then I Googled another person who'd mattered lots to me for a time, only to find a couple of obits from nearly 20 years ago (2003). They didn't even mention what'd been one of his big passions, at least when I first knew him (music). I still have his phone # memorized. I shared some great moments w/him, when I was at an impressionable age. Parts of one afternoon in particular were filmed on Super-8, and I always assumed one day I'd get to see it. Well, that ain't gonna happen. But I will see the 3rd person from that memorable day late next week, and I'll share the memory w/her.
I'm left bereft. Tears're falling. I know people disappear from our lives. Folks fade. Memories remain...for a time anyway. But to find that this person'd died and I had no idea...it hurts more than expected. It doesn't help that I found out earlier this year that another person from that group and time of my life had passed away several years back.
Well, I ain't gonna dwell too much or too long. I am taking some time to grieve.
Listening to music tonight. Feeling lots of feels. Time for bed shortly...
