Open Hearted

[mlerules]

I do know what I want. But it's something that must be there, that must develop on its own. Nudging's okay, but forcing/pushing ain't. If patience is a virtue, does that mean that impatience is a sin? Yet I'm not sure that it's a matter of impatience or merely lack of graceful patience.

Grace Under Pressure. Hmm, perhaps if'n I were consider Time as yet another force of pressure it might be easier to Do the Grace thingie.

Yes. I know what I want. I can nearly taste it. Yet it must be true/actual. It must be real. It must be mutual: mutually desired, freely given. And ability must match desire...or at least meet some minimal standard? Uncertain 'bout this.

Projects. Potential. Patience. "There's no shame in hope." Don't remember where this came from, but it doesn't matter. And I feel foolish, and unwise, and possibly even incredibly stupid for thinking anything's possible. No - for rushing along headstrong w/out taking the time needed...for seeking to FALL, to plunge headlong, when...when what?! When time and geography and reality must be heeded. Heh.

Ah, heck, I lurv all this, too, to at least a certain extent, or I wouldn't continue...

EDIT: Good news. I've realized I can indeed be content w/whatever happens (or doesn't). Shan't fuss or worry or want. Acceptance of whatEVER = key.

Comments

[fjorlief.livejournal.com]

If this was FB I'd be a-clicking on the like button... your words here are so resonant and truthful...

Am imagining a chalkboard with equations on it having to do with grace and pressure and time and all those other important words (I know, the inside of my head is a Very Odd Place indeed)

[mlerules.livejournal.com]

'Cept my chalkboard's 3D w/layers upon layers of meaning and possibility... ;-P

Hope you're feeling/doing a bit better today, BTW.