Major Rethink & Baggage Upgrade

[mlerules]

Sometimes someone'll say something in just such a way as to trigger an avalance of thoughts and blaze a new path of awareness where before there had only been murkiness - or a pile of rubble. Something clicked this evening. Dunno what 'xactly, but the exact impetus matters far less than the result: the rethink. And it's not that I'm able to articulate clearly the new thought, the new pattern, the new way things are and/or should be and/or I want 'em...only this last is perhaps the clearest way to consider the issue(s).

Phew - huge weight off my mind, shoulders, back, neck...I could use a good neck rub, back massage, stretch and crack. Natural progressions have worked so far: I'm where I expected/hoped to be. But where do we go next? What does it look like now/from now on? And the answer is: HELL, I DUNNO! I would like mutual support & understanding and assistance (emotional, physical) as needed. Progressing towards something? Again: HECK IF I KNOW. At this point prolly NOT - or at least nothing currently clearly defined. Other than a workable something...really though, it's gotta be far more than merely workable. Workable's necessary, but insufficient.

I will not take on others' stresses as mine own. I will not morph into a stress monkey. I will reserve my chameleon powers for the positive and shelter it for the negative. (This ain't so easy to do...much figure out how to do't.)

I will no longer micro-manage. This ain't right or good or wise or possible. I will (try) not jump to conclusions (so much). I will not assume the worst. Self-fulfilling prophecies are just stupid.

Holes exist. Stuff I'd like to be there doesn't appear to be there. What is there? Dunno - still trying to figure this out. An oft-repeated refrain.

Something's better than nothing only if something's not worse than nothing. Or something. Getting tired - and it shows (slows).

I like having a goal to work towards, a picture of success to ponder/gaze upon and try to acheive, a plan of action, a way to deal w/things and stuff. This is far more defined now. No - not really. But the previously defined way has now fallen by the wayside - and this is good. Better able to take things as they come, to figure out what things should look like, now that I'm outta the mode I'd fallen into. My baggage has been upgraded to a wheelie - it's still there, but much easier to travel with as it's not so much dragging me down and holding me back. Ah, yes, The Universal Traveler - damg good book w/many uses beyond systems analysis!

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I will no longer micro-manage...I will (try) not jump to conclusions (so much). I will not assume the worst. Self-fulfilling prophecies are just stupid.
Amen. To all of that. Yeesh.

Barely tangential note from Geoffrey

[(Anonymous)]

I used to use the synectics sections of the Universal Traveler as part of tutor training. That was one of three problem solving methods I taught. My director eventually had me take it out because he thought it was too acid freak 60s. I tried to explain to him that he just had a different learning style -- one, I thought to myself, that would not lend itself well to passion, inspriration, and imagination.