mlerules

Mini-epiphany (tm) hit whilst driving home fairly exhaustedly this eve. Can't articulate it clearly now/yet. But in the hopes that writing'll help the processing, I'll blather on for a bit here & now. Fairly often I gush loads 'bout how fab and great and otherwisely superlative my life is, 'cause it often feels that way. What I'm realizing is that even when it's not like that (mega-super-marvie), it's still pretty damn good. I think I used to tend to fall into some sorta pit or mild downward spiral if'n things weren't always very UP, rather than just accept that up won't always be the way, but there's more than just Up and Down, there's a very happy medium, a calm, a peacefulness, a serenity. And even if not calm (life's not always just before a storm or after a buzzy blitz of activity), there's more than White & Black...shades of Grey exist.

Right now, things just are. There're a few things I'm looking fwd to (upcoming trips to the Mouse House, Big Bear, perhaps Carmel, WA, perhaps a return to Cape Breton - Nova Scotia this summer). And there're friends and situations where and with whom it remains to be seen what'll happen, develop, transpire. Hmm, guess I'm sorta hibernating, sorta chilling and waiting, biding my time, not sure what'll happen - but not uneasy 'bout this. Like the Earth, I'm in slowdown mode. I'd like to think I'm planting seedlings for later harvesting and/or blooming, as in ideas...and what else?

I know what I want and need: sounding boards, beacons...lighthouses...Mutual Admiration Societies, folks who'll make me think, wonder, wander, ask qx, strive to know, to be, to become, experience, appreciate, enjoy. Heck, I'll do this on my own anyway...but it's fun to travel w/others as well (mentally as well as physically).

Sometimes in the past I've felt stuck in limbo. Now I'm not feeling stuck, even if I am yet again in some in-between place/time/space. Taking time to...something or other...maybe regroup, gather thoughts and/or energies, wait & see, not worry...and this last is truly delightful.