Long Drawn-Out Process
Sep. 22nd, 2011 07:52 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
mlerulesAnger, fear, acceptance, questioning, wondering WTF?!, self-recrimination, analysis, shrugging of shoulders in disgust, more WTF?!, more anger, nausea, another round of acceptance andn "it's for the best"...it's gonna keep on going for a while. Trying to keep the hamster-wheeling to a minimum though, and find more productive modes of figuring stuff out and dealing w/stuff w/out hitting overwhelm.
Although I quite like![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
delerium3's Rx for heart-ache: Stay Too Pooped To Pout, yesterday my body was too beat to do much more than simple stuff 'round the Hive. I did manage to read lots (finished One Salt Sea w/tears in my eyes and've now launched into The Great Book of Amber aka The Complete Amber Chronicles - Vol 1 - 10), which helps, but'm still finding my heart aching. Well, it's gonna happen. It's what happens.
If'n 'twere easy 'n' simple just to give up my hopes & dreams of the past several years, that'd somehow be worse, TMM. And so I soldier on, doing what I must and what I can. This, too, shall pass. At least I know I will love and be loved again...sometime, somehow, by someone or other.
Although I quite like
delerium3's Rx for heart-ache: Stay Too Pooped To Pout, yesterday my body was too beat to do much more than simple stuff 'round the Hive. I did manage to read lots (finished One Salt Sea w/tears in my eyes and've now launched into The Great Book of Amber aka The Complete Amber Chronicles - Vol 1 - 10), which helps, but'm still finding my heart aching. Well, it's gonna happen. It's what happens. If'n 'twere easy 'n' simple just to give up my hopes & dreams of the past several years, that'd somehow be worse, TMM. And so I soldier on, doing what I must and what I can. This, too, shall pass. At least I know I will love and be loved again...sometime, somehow, by someone or other.
