*cluck*

[mlerules]

yeah, in a fowl mood right now

Dunno why, 'xactly. I should be feeling great, or at least good. And I will again, before too long, likely. But for now, I'm gently steaming. Memories/feelings of what's not but what'd been hoped for...okay, mebbe hopes'd become (or instead really were) expectations, and it's all outta my control anyway.

I need to be happy/content w/what I've got, not what I've not got. And it ain't always easy...

FEAR: I don't wanna ruin what's good.

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[shelly-rae.livejournal.com]

At first I expected pictures of chickens...

Oh, I need to turn off that steam upon occasion too. The key, as so many remind me, is that it's all outa our control.

Thing is I think we're happy with what we have it's just having what we really hoped for or possibly expected dangling so close...

Happy canoeing, or camping, or hiking or whatever it is that makes you happiest. Me? I'm off on my bike--with a ukulele.

This too will pass--as they say.
Anon

[quetz.livejournal.com]

BeingInControl is an illusion anyway. The best we can hope for is to keep the toboggan from crashing.

[clayshaper.livejournal.com]

That's the thing that the Buddhists have RIGHT, IMHO... it's like when I was SO anxiety ridden, and a buddhist monk friend of mine took me to a pet store (this was SOOOOOO long ago, seriously) and we watched everyone adopting puppies. Playing with them, cuddling them... I wanted a dog so BAD, and coudln't have one. He let me watch a long long time, before he suggested we go have lunch- and at lunch, he pointed out what should have been obvious: I just spent like, two hours with PUPPIES. SCADS of PUPPIES!! I could have been cuddling, snuggling, playing, and HAPPY... but the whole time, I was anxious and unhappy, even cuddling them- because I COULDN'T HAVE ONE.

Not a good way to live life. :(

I learned to volunteer to cuddle puppies (and clean kennels) at the local humane society untill I COULD have a dog. :) I didn't give up my wants, my needs... I just modified them so that they weren't causing me PAIN.

I hope that helps, cause it kinda feels like rambling. :P

[mlerules.livejournal.com]

Really helpful, actually, so thanks. :-)