mlerules

Sometimes it seems as if I start to feel X and I tell myself a story aka construct a narrative in order to explain/justify my having the feeling of X. This ain't always particularly helpful, b'c if'n X is a negative feeling, the story ain't happy-making (um, by definition).

Hmm, mebbe it's better not to identify the feeling X as negative...'cept if'n I'm trying to make sense outta it and the story I come up with that explains it is one which I don't like (aka which is negative), well, hmm, something's missing from this, something vital.

Apparently I've got a drive to make sense outta things, to understand things, to define/identify/classify/label/categorize things. Been working on letting this go somewhat. Not really sure how else to be though, what else to do, how to exist w/out this.

Ah, well - not gonna worry/think 'bout this any more now. Gonna lose myself in a book for a while then sleep.