Not Sleepy 'Nuff Yet To Sleep

[mlerules]

Should be, but just amn't. Have just figured out partially why. Another part I knew right away. Latter: prolongation. Former: freedom not realized had been missing. I can do what I wanna do - yeah yeah w/out hurting anybody blah blah blah - but I'm alone now so can't hurt anyone by staying up late, listening to music, thinking, reading more of Harry P. and Half-Pint Prince, typing up random thoughts, setting down random words (SQUAWK), whatever I choose, whatever I feel, simply 'cause. For now, right now: direction's meaningless: I just am. Huz-freaking-zah! Love acheiving this state. Again: prolongation. There's a wonderful state right before I fall asleep. I'm aware of it. I try to make it last...and find I can do so. It's a transitional state, an in-between place/zone/state of mind/being, where the borders and boundaries blur, where distinctions aren't clear, where worries and concerns don't exist. It's akin to where I am now: here & now.