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Well. Hmm. Possible Rebranding.

Totally Off-Topic, but apparently just typing the bit I did above got the ball rolling again...Phew. Apparently sometimes I can indeed Just Do It. Not gonna try to explain myself too much here, but it feels a bit as if a stuck dam has just been unstuckified a bit, which is good.

Things're ending for various people I know. Big things, like r-ships, and life. I guess r-ships can be seen as - and can certainly feel like - "life as we know it." Change can be scary. (Chock full of oppos for growth and all that, but still scary.)

Hmm, I noted something earlier today in an throw-away novel I'm currently reading that seems apropos now (funny how that happens). When a character talks about not leaving Manhattan even though he doesn't particularly like it there, he says "somehow getting through the day has always seemed like less work than moving." Something something something 'bout maintaining the status quo, 'bout fearing change/the unknown, 'bout stasis.

There's Analysis Paralysis, and then there's Laziness. And Procrastination. And Not Giving A Flying Fark.

So, I took a moment earlier today and Just Did Something. Now I feel good for having done it, as well as foolish for waiting so freaking long to do it. (Sorta like moving to PDX...although, really, when I did it, 'twas the Right Time, when 'twasn't before, probably, or something.)

This makes me wonder what else is going on in my life - or more pertinently is NOT going on in my life - that I want to do something about? Lots o' stuff. Do I have a plan? Well, not really. I feel as if I'm blundering along, waiting for something (what, I don't know and/or cannot say). Time to take control once again. (Oh, to find a particular quote that comes to mind even though I cannot exactly remember it. I don't wanna reread all of Justine again...mebbe I'll just thumb through it and see if'n it miraculously appears to me. Or not.)

I've been living here for 3 years & 3 months (and s'more days). Three years has traditionally served as a time for change for me. What's up/coming next? Not really sure. Have I been cocooning, storing up energy, marinating possibilities, letting my subconc work on stuff - or merely drifting? Not sure how much it matters one way or another.

I want Fire, Passion, Drive...but not necessarily Ambition. I want PURPOSE. I will create/determine it for myself. blah blah blah Will sleep soon. Or not...

Date: 2010-07-02 03:18 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] anansi133.livejournal.com
I think they should just call it Ministry of Truth and be done with it.

Having now actually read your post

Date: 2010-07-02 03:25 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] anansi133.livejournal.com
There's another school of thought that goes, "make no change at all until you know exactly the change that's needed"

The situation sorta becomes a deliberate pressure cooker, where you are trying to learn the fewest steps involved to change the fewest things necessary to get closer to what you need.

Re: Having now actually read your post

Date: 2010-07-02 05:55 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mlerules.livejournal.com
"make no change at all until you know exactly the change that's needed"

'Cept I really don't think one ever really knows exactly the change that's needed, since circs and feelings and life changes so much all the time, so what's right right now won't necessarily be right later on...


The situation sorta becomes a deliberate pressure cooker, where you are trying to learn the fewest steps involved to change the fewest things necessary to get closer to what you need.

I do like the efficiency factor inherent in this bit, as well as the language of getting "closer to what you need." Reminds me that perfection ain't gonna happen (see 1st comment above), but progress is still worth seeking/stepping towards. Thx for brain-fodder.

Date: 2010-07-02 09:08 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] sidhefire.livejournal.com
Heh.. interesting post about PSYOP... and looking at what I actually did while I was in, Military Information isn't too far away from an accurate title.

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