Virgo Hamsters
Apr. 12th, 2010 11:37 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
mlerulesIf'n I have a theory, an idea, a goal, a plan - and can test hypos to see if'n things work out and/or check in and see if'n benchmarks're getting done on time - perhaps in a timely manner w/out much more than gut instinct telling me if'n this is so) - then I can check-in and see if'n I'm doing it right or wrong, if'n I'm a success or a failure. Don't like setting myself up to "fail" though. "Failing" - or at least feeling like a failure tends to freeze me up, to prevent me from doing what it freaking takes to...to WHAT? To succeed? To do what I need/want to do to succeed? To satisfy my stated goals?
Or is success more a state of mind, a feeling, an embracing of possibilities and doing the best I can and feeling okay/good 'bout things 'n' stuff. What'm I meant to do in the world here these days? What do I want to do w/my life. Yeah, time for the l'il questions. Spring's sproinging and I'm re-awakening as well.
For now though I'm gonna do what I'm doing, not so much keeping on top as rushing to not fall behind, putting out fires...and realizing this is NOT how I want to live. Better planning doesn't feel like the answer. Taking action's what's req'd. So that's what I'm doing. Baby steps. Forward progress.
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Choosing means nothing w/out doing. Being ain't enough (although at times it's what's necessary). I read a great thought provoker in this morning's LJ Friend's posts: "The future is not a result of choices among alternative paths offered by the present, but a place that is created ~ created first in the mind and will, created next in activity. The future is not some place we are going to, but one we are creating. The paths are not found, but made, and the activity of making them change[s] both the maker and the destination." ~ John Scharr (my edit/gr correction in [brackets], b'c the editor in me couldn't stand it otherwise ;-)
Anyway, what spawned this post originally (which then got hijacked by the Meta-MLE(tm) ;-), was my thinking again of what theory to use to decide what books (if any) to get rid of. I've got space for all of 'em. But mebbe I won't always have space. Mebbe though it's better to wait 'til then to decide. 'Cept I don't like rushing Big Decisions like this when I have to do so and'd rather do it ahead of time. But I don't KNOW what things're gonna look like. So what other rationale do I have for hanging onto vs. culling my books (if space ain't so much of an issue, at least not right now)? I DO re-read books. Some I haven't read yet, and the local libraries ain't nearly as good as they were in Santa Monica so chances of me getting 'em there're slim. Mebbe though if'n I haven't read it yet and it's sat on the shelf here for three (3) freaking years, it's time to GO on to a better home.
Mebbe that's the tack to take (w/myself): unused books're wasteful and unread = unused. And there's an upcoming great opportunity to pass along good books to others in the near future. Oooh, mebbe this strategy'll work. Because I do wanna cull my sh!t, but I'm having a hard time doing it. Reasons'll make it easier, unless I can really Just DO It (which doesn't work so well/often w/me). Okay, back at it now...
Or is success more a state of mind, a feeling, an embracing of possibilities and doing the best I can and feeling okay/good 'bout things 'n' stuff. What'm I meant to do in the world here these days? What do I want to do w/my life. Yeah, time for the l'il questions. Spring's sproinging and I'm re-awakening as well.
For now though I'm gonna do what I'm doing, not so much keeping on top as rushing to not fall behind, putting out fires...and realizing this is NOT how I want to live. Better planning doesn't feel like the answer. Taking action's what's req'd. So that's what I'm doing. Baby steps. Forward progress.
******
Choosing means nothing w/out doing. Being ain't enough (although at times it's what's necessary). I read a great thought provoker in this morning's LJ Friend's posts: "The future is not a result of choices among alternative paths offered by the present, but a place that is created ~ created first in the mind and will, created next in activity. The future is not some place we are going to, but one we are creating. The paths are not found, but made, and the activity of making them change[s] both the maker and the destination." ~ John Scharr (my edit/gr correction in [brackets], b'c the editor in me couldn't stand it otherwise ;-)
Anyway, what spawned this post originally (which then got hijacked by the Meta-MLE(tm) ;-), was my thinking again of what theory to use to decide what books (if any) to get rid of. I've got space for all of 'em. But mebbe I won't always have space. Mebbe though it's better to wait 'til then to decide. 'Cept I don't like rushing Big Decisions like this when I have to do so and'd rather do it ahead of time. But I don't KNOW what things're gonna look like. So what other rationale do I have for hanging onto vs. culling my books (if space ain't so much of an issue, at least not right now)? I DO re-read books. Some I haven't read yet, and the local libraries ain't nearly as good as they were in Santa Monica so chances of me getting 'em there're slim. Mebbe though if'n I haven't read it yet and it's sat on the shelf here for three (3) freaking years, it's time to GO on to a better home.
Mebbe that's the tack to take (w/myself): unused books're wasteful and unread = unused. And there's an upcoming great opportunity to pass along good books to others in the near future. Oooh, mebbe this strategy'll work. Because I do wanna cull my sh!t, but I'm having a hard time doing it. Reasons'll make it easier, unless I can really Just DO It (which doesn't work so well/often w/me). Okay, back at it now...
