Ooomph Gone

[mlerules]

My oomph has gone. Hoping it returns. Anticipation usually pumps me up - and I think it matters, possibly a lot, so the dead/dread/flattened feeling(s) contrast(s) poorly. Not gonna worry though 'til I start listening to muzak for hours on end...then I'll know I've wandered into the doldrums and need to get going and find my way out.

Hmm, various self-help books make a big deal 'bout how important 'tis to feel fully whatever's going on, to increase the richness of your life by being with your feelings fully rather than stuffing 'em down and/or ignoring 'em. Well, when the issue is lack of feeling - apathy - it's not clear what to do. Do I analyze whassup (or what's missing)? Do I just go w/the flow? (Always w/the thought lingering of how long before I'm martyrying/mired?) Do I not worry at all? Do I not think at all 'bout it? But if'n I neither think nor feel, well, then what am I and/or what do I do?

Listening to music can stimulate emotions/feelings. Going walkies can air out the cobwebs of my mind...and mebbe my heart, too, now that I think on't.

Heh. Just letting these words pour out onto the paper - thoughts pour out into the ether - helps matters. I peeled back the curtains and saw the light begin to dawn. Yeah, both actually & virtually. *smiles*

Gonna shower, dress, breakfast, grab a book and my journal, then head down towards Oregon City for Dentistry &...

Comments

[glitch25.livejournal.com]

*hugs&things*

[mlerules.livejournal.com]

Thx!

[sidhefire.livejournal.com]

*hugs & stuff*
When I start feeling that way what I've started doing is focusing on self-care. A cup of earl gray in a really nice tea cup; treating myself to something yummy to munch on; curling up with a nice soft blanket and then thinking about my friends and what a great life I really do have.

Hope you're feeling your normal self soonest!
*more hugs*

[vismaya-viewer.livejournal.com]

I think the doodlebobbers might actually help with the dentistry. ;o)

[mlerules.livejournal.com]

Well, it's not good if'n I start giggling madly w/the dental dam in my mouth and the dent/doc w/tools in my mouth...

[quetz.livejournal.com]

Have you looked for it under the couch?

[mlerules.livejournal.com]

Ah, so THAT's what the Vorpal-Dust Bunnies have been feasting on of late...

[vonvoncake.livejournal.com]

I agree with the self care suggestion. I also sometimes need to go the other way. When I go out and intentionally do for others with nothing tangible coming in return, it brings me back into myself. When Tent City was at the church, I cooked a meal for them. The gratitude and graciousness that they showed to me filled me for a LONG time.

[mlerules.livejournal.com]

Thank you for this reminder/nudge.

[siouxiequeue.livejournal.com]

*hugs* - hope the day got better!! hope you found some of that oomph.
Love you! looking forward to spending time w/you Friday - will you be there for ditch digging?
oh.. and chocolate helps - or conjuring a patronus... might be dementors...

[mlerules.livejournal.com]

Yup re: ditch digging - 'specially since 'twas my oomph that instigated that project to go onto the calendar then!

Oh, I figured out afterwords what was up re: loss of oomph yesterday = my worry/concern/anticipation 'bout the upcoming dental stuff (2 hours at dentist office yesterday morning for crown prep). One typical manifestation of MLE Worry is Apathy/Loss of Feeling. Mebbe next time I'll see it as such ahead of time...such as on Wed, 12/2 when I return for crown fitting & itsnext door neighbor tooth's drilling & filling.