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Starting to get a handle on it. In trying to figure out my expectations and desires, I seek to know the other(s)'s involved as well. Rather than merely imagine/fantasize/conjure up out of the ether where the Winged Monkeys live what that might be (THAT = the other person's expectations/goals), I managed to compose a short succinct e-mail ASKING what they were. What a concept!

Quite nicely/satisfactorily, I rec'd a fairly prompt (making note of my initial word choice)/quick articulate response.

Wow. I haven't done this in a long time. THIS = cutting out an entire section of an LJ post. Usually I follow a fairly strict Do Not Delete policy. Have realized thought that This Bit belongs elsewhere, not here. I haven't blotted out its existence so much as narrowed its audience significantly. (Some'll go out in alternate c-modes (modes of communication aka commodes) and some'll get relegated to My Thoughts/For Mine Eyes Only, at least for now.)

In short: I'm in the process of figuring a mess of stuff out. It's nice coming to realize I'll deal w/whatever however...I'll expend emotional energy on it b'c it matters to me. IT = deciding what to do next and/or how to go about it...what I want/need and how best to go about Making It So. This involves figuring out options, possibilities, likelihoods, factors, blah blah blah.

Feelings wash over me as I try to figure this out. I cannot quite identify them. This is when I most want to know what my intuition's telling me, as I intuit that these feelings are my guts talking, but I cannot make out what they're saying.
Why do my guts persist in speaking in tongues? Where's my Babel fish?!


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On a different note:

Starting place: the thread of how it's good/wise to restrict worrying to just the worst possible thing(s) that is/are LIKELY to happen (as opposed to wild highly unlikely things). It's better not to waste emotional energy and instead pour it into imagining/dreaming/fantasizing about positive visions...so long as they're accompanied by positive actions supporting the Making It So.

It strikes me as a waste of emotional energy merely to daydream w/out taking any actions towards makint it so. Well, not really. Too much focus on the ideal w/out any attempt at realizing/actualizing it ain't good, but a certain amount of daydreaming possibilities's cool/good. Trick is in finding and maintaining BALANCE. Then again, ain't this always the key?

I seem to enjoy a certain amount of imbalance in my life.

Hey, it's hailing out now - cool!

Date: 2009-03-17 08:18 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] sidhefire.livejournal.com
As usual I love watching you paint abstract pictures with words! And on another subject THANK YOU SO MUCH for dropping the wee box of rubber stamps off here for me. They are exactly what I needed for the projects I have planned for next quarter!

Date: 2009-03-18 11:22 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mlerules.livejournal.com
Looking forward to seeing what wonders you create w/the stamps!

*git your art on*

Date: 2009-03-18 12:30 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] siouxiequeue.livejournal.com
*hug* we're doing similar things, I think - much change in the air, much of it self inflicted - with joy and trepidation... hoping for best outcomes, learning how to talk about it and ask people how they feel, encourage real answers...

*hugs* may we all grow in healthy, fun and rewarding directions!
*joy* to you - and chocolate!

Date: 2009-03-18 03:59 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mlerules.livejournal.com
*hugs* may we all grow in healthy, fun and rewarding directions!
*joy* to you - and chocolate!


Yes, indeed!

Date: 2009-03-18 06:18 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] vismaya-viewer.livejournal.com
Hooray for communication and prompt replies. Hoping you're successful sorting it all out and that you and your intuition can agree on a language soon. *hugs*

Date: 2009-03-18 09:07 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] hiddentass.livejournal.com
"I seem to enjoy a certain amount of imbalance in my life."

Truer words have not, I feel, been spoken. :-) I've known many people with a similar need who have not recognized this. Kudos for avoiding that drama and figuring out what you need and enjoy.

-Tass

Date: 2009-03-18 11:23 am (UTC)

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