Finding Yourself (Life As Improv)

[mlerules]

Do you look at a particular time, a specific place for yourself? Do you look at your life as a series of snapshots, of albums arranged chronologically? As a functional resume? As a professional resume? My professional life laid out on a single sheet of paper (according to specific rules). How much of this is me? How much more of me is there? Feels as if there's an chunk of life-span of experiences, of thoughts, of feelings, of questions posed, of answers considered, of hypothesis dreamed up and tested and revised and put on the shelf 'til they get pulled out next time ('round and 'round we go), a lot more of me that there's no simple way of explaining....... Falling into rabbit holes along the way.

Shift in focus: My imagination functions best with a crew. (An audience perhaps? Hmm, only if interactive theater. Life is improv.) I want my imagination stimulated.

An identified need of mine (as well as a want and a desire): I desire to please. I desire to meet needs. Mini-epiphany: I've been feeling selfish. I don't want to do this. I shan't do this.

SNAPSHOT: I've been entwined in the chains in the Chapel/Church of St George. I didn't offer up prayers, b'c I don't swing/roll that way. What I felt, though, was an incredibly strong sense of history and of place. Many people'd been there before, people who cared and prayed and felt and believed and had faith. Okay. I guess that counts as a spiritual moment.

Snow. Rainbows. Nature. Architecture. Icons. Impermanence.

From The Invitation by Oriah Mountain Dreamer (p. 31), plucked out of context, mildly reworked, and put to use for my own devices (b'c that's how I've come to approach much of life): Don't confuse work with accomplishment or frenetic activity with movement, growth, and learning. Reading this provides me with a measure of satisfaction.


Dreams & Desires.

Comments

[sidhefire.livejournal.com]

My imagination functions best with a crew. (An audience perhaps? Hmm, only if interactive theater. Life is improv.) I want my imagination stimulated.

I can so identify with that statement. I think I do best in collaborative environments. I need bits & pieces of alone time to rejuvenate, but for *doing* things... I prefer to be in a tribe/pack/group...

[catawhorl.livejournal.com]

*Don't confuse work with accomplishment or frenetic activity with movement, growth, and learning.*

That seemed to hit me right between the eye balls....wow. I know that I need to slow down...Lord I know I need to STOP, but sometimes knowledge and my reality dont quite work out well. Though I am taking baby steps to make this happen. (I will be instituting a week off every three months)

One step at a time,

me

[mlerules.livejournal.com]

Good plan. :-)

[vismaya-viewer.livejournal.com]

I've started looking at my life as a big cauldron simmering over a fire, adding items to my soup, while cooking my 'great work' all alchemy style, transforming myself from the combination of ingredients into what I will be. I hope it's yummy.

I love being an audience member in your interactive theater, so let me know when there's a seat available. *wink*

Also, your hospitality is comparable to my own, so as a house elf, receiving that level of generous decadence is a challenge and an incredible gift, if that helps balance the feelings of selfishness; though I think some selfishness is healthy. One must meet their own needs before they can help meet the needs of others. ;o)

[mlerules.livejournal.com]

your hospitality is comparable to my own

I am honored - thank you.

Thx as well for the words re: selfishness and balancing. As usual, you've given good thought to and articulated things well and helpfully. :-)

[lunaticbubbles.livejournal.com]

"An identified need of mine (as well as a want and a desire): I desire to please. I desire to meet needs. Mini-epiphany: I've been feeling selfish. I don't want to do this. I shan't do this."

I'm very much the same way. However, in regards to the selfishness part. Sometimes it's okay to be selfish. It's almost like a recharge so you can continue to meet others needs.

And, as always, enjoying your musings. Glad you share them.