Feeling Flippy-Floppy
Jun. 17th, 2005 12:23 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
mlerulesAll over the place right now. After a semester of getting up at 5:something a.m. and going to sleep fairly early (usually 8-10pm), I seem to be reverting back to a more Night Owl schedule. It's getting easier and easier to get up late, probably 'cause I find myself staying up late more and more often. Nothing particularly bad 'bout this. But I haven't settled into a routine yet. I often don't. Often find myself jumping all over the place a lot. Not so useful/functional. Just the way it is. Just the way the ball bounces. Slowly getting stuff done. Nothing much major crossed off the To Do list. In fact, getting stressed out just compiling a new one. This one's got To Do at the top then two (2) columns: Need & Want. Thinking it might be wise to require that I cross something off on the former list before doing something on the latter list. Balance is good and all that carp. Work & Play. Destiny & Passion?
Must remember: baby steps. I wanna leap over lines, plowing down any/all resistance, get to the finish line...only I don't know where it is. And I KNOW that the journey's the thing anyway, not the destination. Sometimes though I long for a destination of peace, of satisfaction, of contentment. Guess this really can't/doesn't last forever. I should know this. My previous life motto was Nothing Lasts Forever. Then it became Turnabout Is Fair Play. Although this last one still holds true, it seems as if there's another one guiding my life right now, only I can't articulate it.
Frustration mounts. Then recedes when I realize that all is well in this, the best of all possible worlds. ;-P
I don't have what I want. Annoying. Hope I'm not a spoiled brat and/or b!tch.
Want to end on a positive note. Found "Found" books and Thinking Like Leo Da Vinci today, along w/the missing thermometer and some misplaced paperwork, helped firm up and send out a resume for a friend, got in a nice beach walk, saw a great movie (Batman Begins), ate good & healthy food (well, at the least the cake was tasty (nuked for 15 seconds), if not healthful). Went through a couple stacks of carp and tossed some stuff before repiling it for another time. Am heading in the right direction. Just takes a while. Far too long. But that's the way the ball bounces. Accept it and move on, fix it if possible and desired, otherwise get on getting on and deal w/it.
Thinking I'm gonna sleep well tonight.
Must remember: baby steps. I wanna leap over lines, plowing down any/all resistance, get to the finish line...only I don't know where it is. And I KNOW that the journey's the thing anyway, not the destination. Sometimes though I long for a destination of peace, of satisfaction, of contentment. Guess this really can't/doesn't last forever. I should know this. My previous life motto was Nothing Lasts Forever. Then it became Turnabout Is Fair Play. Although this last one still holds true, it seems as if there's another one guiding my life right now, only I can't articulate it.
Frustration mounts. Then recedes when I realize that all is well in this, the best of all possible worlds. ;-P
I don't have what I want. Annoying. Hope I'm not a spoiled brat and/or b!tch.
Want to end on a positive note. Found "Found" books and Thinking Like Leo Da Vinci today, along w/the missing thermometer and some misplaced paperwork, helped firm up and send out a resume for a friend, got in a nice beach walk, saw a great movie (Batman Begins), ate good & healthy food (well, at the least the cake was tasty (nuked for 15 seconds), if not healthful). Went through a couple stacks of carp and tossed some stuff before repiling it for another time. Am heading in the right direction. Just takes a while. Far too long. But that's the way the ball bounces. Accept it and move on, fix it if possible and desired, otherwise get on getting on and deal w/it.
Thinking I'm gonna sleep well tonight.
