Near Panic

[mlerules]

Yup, time's getting short now. Must grab my towel and try not to panic. Although, really, panic's what I NEED as a motivator right now. The daze buzz by. What happened to the two (2) weeks? Now there's only ONE (1) week. I do admit to spending a certain 'mount of time over the past few daze doing zippo but staring into space, reducing my Kleenex supply, and wondering "what if." Must stop feeling sorry for myself (and for D) and get my @ss into gear. It (the portfolio) will get done. I will leap through the final set of flaming hoops. But if'n I don't start jumping now, it's gonna be more unpleasant than it could be. That being said, I'm hoping there's a beach walk as I'm finally avail for one. If'n not, that's very coo-el, 'cause I'll have no excuse not to keep portolioing. Lost myself in double-negatives there.

More Firefly this eve. Am halfway through disc 2. Want to finish all 4 discs (entire 1st season) before Serenity comes out.

Comments

[stacymckenna.livejournal.com]

Not oday - too much moving aftermath...

Next Thurs?

[mlerules.livejournal.com]

Huzzah for next week (fingers crossed). Means I gotta get the portfolio done and turned in no later than next Th morn. Gulp! Congrats on all the moving/painting/settling in stuff - zounds like you've accomplished what it should take a dozen folks a month to do!

[redefining-self.livejournal.com]

Ohhhh, Firely! I love that series. I simply can't believe they cancelled it after on 13 episodes (shown all out of order and didn't even show the best ones).

Speaking of Firefly, prepare to turn green - I got to see one of the preview showings of Serenity. It was fantabulous. If you like Firefly you'll love Serenity.

As for procrastination due to feeling down and blue - I'm hoping that you find your way out of it. I fully believe that your intelligence and talent would carry you through a last minute "oh crap it's due tomorrow" kinda situation. But I'm hoping you don't end up having to shoulder that stress.

:)

[mlerules.livejournal.com]

You're SO lucky - previewing Serenity early!!! Glad to hear it passes muster, too.

Actually, the procrast's not so much b'c of feeling low, it's mainly b'c I'm a lazybones. But thx for your faith in me - yeah, I will get through it, hopefully w/not too much stress.

Oh, and please know that my minor-flame re: nat'l svc was not directed at you in any way. Your reply just set off a charge which I go off on now and again anyway. Of course, the other stuff in my reply was indeed my opinion in reply to your comment re: the SSS. I quite like dialogue/debate on important issues. Care far more 'bout this sorta stuff then who's sleeping w/you and whatnot.

Oops - WHO, NOT YOU

[mlerules.livejournal.com]

ACK - just reread my last line and it should be "who's sleeping with WHO" not "who's sleeping w/you," 'cause I do care and am pleased that you've got such a lovely person who's sleeping w/you these daze! I meant more along the lines of tabloids and celebs I don't know what such like. Am shutting up now so I don't stick my foot in even further and choke on't.

Re: Oops - WHO, NOT YOU

[mlerules.livejournal.com]

Sorry to unload here but you are one of the very few on my friends list who doesn't know either of the people and posts regularly.

Oh, so no reason to be sorry. Feel free to unload whenever/whatever - it's what friends are for. This sitch is too bad. From my (albeit limited) experience, if'n someone overreacts (which is what sounds like's going on) like this, it often means there's really something else going on. Perhaps the offense pushed one of Amy's red hot buttons and hit a super-sensitive nerve in an area over which she feels mighty insecure, in which case perhaps it'd help to address the core issue. Not that this is necessarily something you could/should/can do, but perhaps discussing it w/her might help unmask what's really going on. Or is there any potential jealousy going on which makes things potentially tricky? (Suffering from this particular imp on my back far too often for comfort, I tend to always ask, just in case, as it can explain otherwise unexplainable over-reactions.) Perhaps they can agree to disagree w/a mutual understanding that no offence was meant (assuming 'tis the case). Does the other person also have her/his back up about this or can s/he offer an olive branch to recommence the f-ship? Since this person is a friend (and colleague) of yours, it seems like it'd behoove Amy to try to make nice w/him/her so as to ease your situation somewhat. They don't have to be the bestest of friends, but it'd be nice if'n they could get along. I do hope this doesn't make you feel too uncertain. It sounds like you've been feeling so fab 'bout everything being perfect, and now you're not so sure (to quite you). But r-ships are rarely perfect: they do require work and practice. I do hope you can find a way to communicate w/Amy 'bout this and make her see that it's really tough on you when she acts/reacts this way. Finding the right words to say and time to say them is the trickiest part of all. You can't be seen as taking sides - and it doesn't sound like you are - but bygones must be bygones and if'n it wasn't that bad, then it should be let go at some point. Then again, if'n a red hot sensitive button was pushed, then whatever issue was raised should be addressed, if only so you don't accidently set it off sometime! Best wishes to you and yours!

Re: Oops - WHO, NOT YOU

[mlerules.livejournal.com]

Oh, and if'n you'd rather I delete this whole thread on the off-chance she/they might stumble onto it and/or you'd rather not have it quite so public a forum, just lemme know and I can delete this thread. Prolly not an issue, as this discussion came under one of my posts, but wanted you to have the option, just in case.

Re: Oops - WHO, NOT YOU

[redefining-self.livejournal.com]

Naw. I'm not too worried. I plan to talk with her about some of this anyway. I'm just not sure when. I'm almost afraid to talk to her about it because she responds so strongly and emotionally. We'll see.

I do appreciate your thoughtful and insightful comments. Some of your guesses are probably pretty close to the mark here.

RenFaire

[mlerules.livejournal.com]

And now for something completely different: have you made it to SoCalRenFaire yet this year? I'm going again this Sat (5/14), hopefully w/Elise, too. Any chance of you making it up for the event? It's quite fun w/good shows, good food, and a good feeling (for non-participants anyway). It's much closer (210 & 605) than the San Bern foothills and cooler to boot. It ends at 6pm, so you'd have time to get back for Rocky, or you could always crash here (if you don't mind the floor and 2 cats who'd probably sleep near/on you).

Re: RenFaire

[redefining-self.livejournal.com]

I know we won't be able to make it to that this weekend. Pretty much all weekend we're putting together props for our shadow cast of Monty Pythn's The Holy Grail. By the way, we're scheduled to perform the Holy Grail on June 11th (I believe). Keep that date in mind.

Re: RenFaire

[mlerules.livejournal.com]

COO-EL!

[twistedcat.livejournal.com]

sowwy, i'm trying to make some money today and such... next week! next week, i say!

[mlerules.livejournal.com]

Huzzah for next week (fingers crossed). Means I gotta get the portfolio done and turned in no later than next Th morn. Gulp! Best wishes in making moolah and such today!