Disconnect

[mlerules]

Feeling disconnected. No judgment 'bout this state implied. 'Tis neither unpleasant nor pleasant.

Lobbing intimacies into situations like so many hand grenades. Not sure which is worse: reaching out and having your hand slapped away or being ignored altogether. Oooh. Negative attention > not existing...IFF acknowledgment matters that much. Self-validation rox.

Just typing to hear myself think. Must sleep soon. Really really wanna.

Comments

[shangchi.livejournal.com]

Ok, here goes:

*hug*

[stacymckenna.livejournal.com]

Negative attention > not existing
I recently told my therapist that being ignored is better than not even crossing someone's mind.

[mlerules.livejournal.com]

Tricky though, when it's not clear WHY you're not getting any contact ('cause they've forgotten you exist or aren't important enough or're busy w/other stuff or whatEVER). Silence can shout volumes...but can also be difficult to interpret.

[stacymckenna.livejournal.com]

Entirely.