Distancing Oneself...Seeing Signs
Jan. 18th, 2007 10:54 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
mlerulesFeeling on the verge, on the cusp, poised balanced waiting for a puff of air to determine the next step/path/way. I'm inhaling, holding my breath, waiting to exhale and produce that magical puff. About to distance myself physically. What'll it mean emotionally? Ties here remain strong, but I'm open to creating/strengthening others elsewhere. Seems like I've scattered my emotional eggs to the winds and the four (4) corners of the globe, to mix my metaphors madly.
I seem to find and look for signs...perhaps merely 20/20 hindsight and/or the desire for justification/rationalization...post hoc, ergo propter hoc...such as being pleased (given the weather this Winter) NOT to have taken up residence in an RV or a Yome in WA this past Fall. If'n I were to find the perfect place in Portland (OR) next week, this might well be a sign - the sign I need? - that it's meant to be, w/IT in this case referring to the answer to What/Where Next. I know I know, I'm getting sick & tired myself of the on-going now 'n' again agonizing...'cept now it's not really agonizing so much as considering options/alternatives. Making Flippy Floppy. Being Wishy-Washy. Here...There...Everywhere...Anywhere...Nowhere. Sometimes I want to live in a Sea of Holes...sometimes I feel as if I DO. SIGNS.
i'm tired...
I seem to find and look for signs...perhaps merely 20/20 hindsight and/or the desire for justification/rationalization...post hoc, ergo propter hoc...such as being pleased (given the weather this Winter) NOT to have taken up residence in an RV or a Yome in WA this past Fall. If'n I were to find the perfect place in Portland (OR) next week, this might well be a sign - the sign I need? - that it's meant to be, w/IT in this case referring to the answer to What/Where Next. I know I know, I'm getting sick & tired myself of the on-going now 'n' again agonizing...'cept now it's not really agonizing so much as considering options/alternatives. Making Flippy Floppy. Being Wishy-Washy. Here...There...Everywhere...Anywhere...Nowhere. Sometimes I want to live in a Sea of Holes...sometimes I feel as if I DO. SIGNS.
i'm tired...
