Theme: Obscurity: Soup Tasting Times
Sep. 2nd, 2006 01:01 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
mlerulesThe world, she is quite small. This came crashingly clear this afternoon. Sort of amazing...a bit odd. Ended up out at Surf Beach for an hour and a half, watching the greys in the sky shift and settle and drift, seeing blues & greens colour the waves in tune w/the sky. Am now enjoying and experiencing music I've seen live (Kan'Nal)...and if'n I were in WA would be experiencing next week.
Theme: Am I being seduced or seducing? How much does the answer matter? I like being in control. Sometimes though...impulses hit, hit strongly, start me down paths...must take it slow, controlled, contained...WHY?! I shout? There are times when I HATE being sensible. Sigh. Then I realize...something. And it makes it all alright. This town holds memories. Mostly good, quite good. Farking wonderful in fact. I skirted the Drama by and large, sometimes getting my feet wet but generally avoiding it.
I do like to live a Drama-free existence. I strive for it. I do not like being dragged into it (it = Drama). I'd resent it. I do not want it to be so. [May my wishes prevail.]
Very pleased to turn new folks onto Kan'Nal. Yes, George and I like it when we get to rub our hands w/glee. Now again maniacal laughter escapes from the compound.
Current Virgo horoscope courtesy of Rob Breszny (Free Will Astrology): "...What taboo is it time for you to break in a discerning way? What inhibition no longer serves you, even though it one time might have kept you safe and sane? What conventional wisdom based on fear has infected you, preventing you from experimenting with exciting possibilities?"
Took these Deep Thoughts(tm) - Daily Dose(tm) worthy - to Surf Beach today. (Yes, disco has come full-circle.) Surf & sand, boyz being boyz, fisherfolk w/waders and wooly hats and multiple poles, commuters waiting for Amtrak to start (or continue) 'em on some adventure. I like adventure.
Currently soup tasting (testing the waters). Note to self: avoid situation which inclused the null quantity = a lotta lack of what you're dishing out. Which doesn't affect the validity of the fact that the breaking of the heart is an opening up of the heart. (One of my least favorite things.) Emotional open heart surgery. New valves to prevent (or at least reduce) blocking.
This weekend is yet another in a long line of studies concerned with the adage "Moving always goes more smoothly with sleep dep."
REMEMBER: Get & send A. the Techno Wizard hat from the next visit to D-land. (Soon, I'm Jonesing.) He doesn't get it thought 'til he moves/migrates/motivates the olde network to the new location.
Tonight's key toast: To a huge reduction in soul-sucking. Candles are lit, gem light's aglowing, music's playing - and I'm now alone so have control of the remote. Yep, part of what I'm doing is resetting my home zone here in town. I loved hitting SouthSide and KNOWING SO MANY PEOPLE there. It's a small town and in some ways it's MY small town. [Soundtrack: This Town Is Our Town.] *brain shift* That became our theme...way back in other daze. Flagstaff, AZ, 1 January 1987. How is it that people who were SO incredibly important to us back then fade away? Getting much better at dealing w/this annoying and maddening and saddening fact of life.
*** And back to Here & Now:
Music's good. Fire's burning. I'm in heaven. So many amazing memories are associated with this place. And now by virtue of sharing the music (W'fie) here it's been infused w/great memories w/great people. What do I find here that I need so much? Inspiration, motivation, acceptance and appreciation. What more do I need? Companionship. And I dream of more still: shared laughter & shared silence. Comfort.
Pulled runes this afternoon and found a recurring theme: Algiz - protective, sedges/rushes: concerned with control of emotions, on getting caught up in highs and lows, and if low/in pain, not to escape from life by pulling down the veil and denying what's up but instead to observing it and staying with it. OUCH-potential. Fark that! I've spent most of my life ignoring the golden mean, straying to extremes (of emotion more than action), I'd be happy w/contentment. Or not. It happens now and again. What matters is the Here & Now. One thing I like so much about driving is that I get to listen to what I want to...over and over again if I like.
Okay, enough typing. Back to flickering flames and good music. Goodnight all and to all a good night. G'night Moon.
Theme: Am I being seduced or seducing? How much does the answer matter? I like being in control. Sometimes though...impulses hit, hit strongly, start me down paths...must take it slow, controlled, contained...WHY?! I shout? There are times when I HATE being sensible. Sigh. Then I realize...something. And it makes it all alright. This town holds memories. Mostly good, quite good. Farking wonderful in fact. I skirted the Drama by and large, sometimes getting my feet wet but generally avoiding it.
I do like to live a Drama-free existence. I strive for it. I do not like being dragged into it (it = Drama). I'd resent it. I do not want it to be so. [May my wishes prevail.]
Very pleased to turn new folks onto Kan'Nal. Yes, George and I like it when we get to rub our hands w/glee. Now again maniacal laughter escapes from the compound.
Current Virgo horoscope courtesy of Rob Breszny (Free Will Astrology): "...What taboo is it time for you to break in a discerning way? What inhibition no longer serves you, even though it one time might have kept you safe and sane? What conventional wisdom based on fear has infected you, preventing you from experimenting with exciting possibilities?"
Took these Deep Thoughts(tm) - Daily Dose(tm) worthy - to Surf Beach today. (Yes, disco has come full-circle.) Surf & sand, boyz being boyz, fisherfolk w/waders and wooly hats and multiple poles, commuters waiting for Amtrak to start (or continue) 'em on some adventure. I like adventure.
Currently soup tasting (testing the waters). Note to self: avoid situation which inclused the null quantity = a lotta lack of what you're dishing out. Which doesn't affect the validity of the fact that the breaking of the heart is an opening up of the heart. (One of my least favorite things.) Emotional open heart surgery. New valves to prevent (or at least reduce) blocking.
This weekend is yet another in a long line of studies concerned with the adage "Moving always goes more smoothly with sleep dep."
REMEMBER: Get & send A. the Techno Wizard hat from the next visit to D-land. (Soon, I'm Jonesing.) He doesn't get it thought 'til he moves/migrates/motivates the olde network to the new location.
Tonight's key toast: To a huge reduction in soul-sucking. Candles are lit, gem light's aglowing, music's playing - and I'm now alone so have control of the remote. Yep, part of what I'm doing is resetting my home zone here in town. I loved hitting SouthSide and KNOWING SO MANY PEOPLE there. It's a small town and in some ways it's MY small town. [Soundtrack: This Town Is Our Town.] *brain shift* That became our theme...way back in other daze. Flagstaff, AZ, 1 January 1987. How is it that people who were SO incredibly important to us back then fade away? Getting much better at dealing w/this annoying and maddening and saddening fact of life.
*** And back to Here & Now:
Music's good. Fire's burning. I'm in heaven. So many amazing memories are associated with this place. And now by virtue of sharing the music (W'fie) here it's been infused w/great memories w/great people. What do I find here that I need so much? Inspiration, motivation, acceptance and appreciation. What more do I need? Companionship. And I dream of more still: shared laughter & shared silence. Comfort.
Pulled runes this afternoon and found a recurring theme: Algiz - protective, sedges/rushes: concerned with control of emotions, on getting caught up in highs and lows, and if low/in pain, not to escape from life by pulling down the veil and denying what's up but instead to observing it and staying with it. OUCH-potential. Fark that! I've spent most of my life ignoring the golden mean, straying to extremes (of emotion more than action), I'd be happy w/contentment. Or not. It happens now and again. What matters is the Here & Now. One thing I like so much about driving is that I get to listen to what I want to...over and over again if I like.
Okay, enough typing. Back to flickering flames and good music. Goodnight all and to all a good night. G'night Moon.
