Six Years Back
Apr. 5th, 2006 10:01 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
mlerulesSix (6) years ago a friend and I headed out to Phx for a long w'end, hitting many of the same sites as on this last w'end's trip: staying w/the same friend (in a different house), enjoying the AZ RenFest, sampling the Phx cuisine (mostly non-existent - we were thrilled to find a non-smoking Denny's), and wandering the Botanical Gardens. Also at a crossroads then, as now, only now I'm looking forward to the next phase of my life w/happiness and joy rather than dread and fear. 'Kay, 'twasn't quite that bad, but back then it was my first time single on my own (sans boyfriend/husband living w/me) in well over a decade and it wasn't my choice. Yeah, I mentioned liking to be in control (at least at times) last night/entry. It'd been years and years and years since the choice to end a r-ship wasn't mine. Ultimately this one was, too, but I didn't take it all on myself: I forced him to make a decision (commit or quit) rather than just continue sliding by. Oooh, just writing this starts triggering certain things, certain red-button sensitive issues...but not so much...only twinges, memories of what was and could've been and wasn't to be...I've accepted my lot in life (childlessness) and am okay w/it. 'Cause what I didn't want was to do it on my own. I wanted a partner to raise a fambily with, to be a fambily with, to grow...blah blah blah. And given what I now know 'bout him: THANK DOG WE DIDN'T GO THERE, DO THAT! Really. Truly. Madly. (Yeah, this last's the main reason why: insanity ain't always amusing/cute/quaint.) So now (breathe) I'm creating a new sorta fambily/community, arising stronger and more certain of myself (if not my precise direction - hell, THIS I know, but not how things'll look/work) from the ashes of olde dreams to create new ones. I have an idea of where I'm going...and look forward to the process of getting there. Have been working on Getting to Know (takeoff on Getting to Yes...never mind). Dunno where precisely 'tis I'm headed, but that's okay...I'm on my way. ('Bout time, too!)
Spent an hour at the Phx BotGardens yesterday. Not much rain this year - last week's storm dumped the first water in over six (6) months! - but there were still loads o' lovely blossoms in the wildflower area (bee & hummingbird gardens). Outside these gardens, what my friend pointed out six (6) years back still holds true: most of the plants in the place look like Dr. Seuss designed 'em: they're incredibly strange and quite wonderful.
Coolest part of the entire trip: we hung out for a while in the Butterfly House, surrounded by flowering plants and hundreds of brightly colored fluttering butterflies: zebra striped ones, speckled ones, ones w/huge "eyes" on their wings...surrounding us, landing on us, grazing on orange slices in the bird-feeders, strafing (sp) the fountain, enjoying the frequent mistings (as did we all - Phx even in early April gets toasty). Truly marvelous.
Hokay, time to get back at it. Have managed today to start watering the plants and to install Microsoft Office, which allowed me to type and print out my letter to send off to the tax guy, so soon (after 11am conference call) I'll head out, copy stuff, FedEx it, run errands...and get on getting on w/my life.
Spent an hour at the Phx BotGardens yesterday. Not much rain this year - last week's storm dumped the first water in over six (6) months! - but there were still loads o' lovely blossoms in the wildflower area (bee & hummingbird gardens). Outside these gardens, what my friend pointed out six (6) years back still holds true: most of the plants in the place look like Dr. Seuss designed 'em: they're incredibly strange and quite wonderful.
Coolest part of the entire trip: we hung out for a while in the Butterfly House, surrounded by flowering plants and hundreds of brightly colored fluttering butterflies: zebra striped ones, speckled ones, ones w/huge "eyes" on their wings...surrounding us, landing on us, grazing on orange slices in the bird-feeders, strafing (sp) the fountain, enjoying the frequent mistings (as did we all - Phx even in early April gets toasty). Truly marvelous.
Hokay, time to get back at it. Have managed today to start watering the plants and to install Microsoft Office, which allowed me to type and print out my letter to send off to the tax guy, so soon (after 11am conference call) I'll head out, copy stuff, FedEx it, run errands...and get on getting on w/my life.
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Phoenix Food
Date: 2006-04-05 05:37 pm (UTC)Re: Phoenix Food
Date: 2006-04-05 06:22 pm (UTC)Our main problem w/finding foodstuffs resulted from the fact that Phx and environs rolls up the street early and on a couple occasions we were seeking sustenance quite late (after 11pm on a Sunday and around Midnight night before last). We ate a perfectly passable breakfast at the Black Bear diner which started in NorCal (near Shasta) and has spread to surrounding states. I ate at one in Sonoma almost exactly a year ago, the day after D&C's wedding. Quite odd and amusing to spend an hour surrounded by log cabin & bear decor and then exit into the dry Phx heat and utter lack of bear & pine-ness.