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mlerulesMood swings, that is. Feeling low and blah/bleh. Yes, I differentiate 'tween bleh and blah, although I cannot seem to articulate said difference right now. Taking this recent/current Moo'Swing as a challenge. Want to accomplish the few things I've listed at minimum, plus get some exercise (walkies, Grom(m)it?). Pay rent, pay auto ins, shop for groceries, make haircutting appt. Ideally I'll also work more on dealing w/piles of carp...without letting the never-endingness of 'em get me down. Mildly PO'd, but methinks it's mainly b'c I'm feeling this way rather than for any valid reason. Spiralling PO'dness...eventually I'll start laughing at myself, which'll help pull me out of it/myself.
Getting out will be good. Stayed in my sock monkeys all day yesterday, not venturing out for anything, not even to get the mail. Listened to music (an assortment of pop&rock and then Mozart's last 5 symphonies), watched The Grifters (which I'd remembered as a different flim, somehow), started reading T. Pratchett's Thud, finished Bill Bryson's The Lost Continent and began his Neither Here Nor There - enjoying the latter more than the former, and began and completed ch 3 (Desire: Intoxication - Plant: MaryJane (sp)) from M Pollan's The Botany of Desire - really interesting perspective, great turns of phrase, fascinatingly well-written.
Some stuff from this last that particularly interested me include: the identification of the word/concept "meme" as a unit of memorable cultural information, as coined by Richard Dawkins in The Selfish Gene (1976); Samuel Taylor Coleridge's notion of the imagination as a mental faculty that dissolves, diffuses, and dissipates...in order to re-create. It's sorta how I imagine what goes on inside my head (perhaps also my heart): stuff comes in, gets assigned to various categories, then gets tested in other categories...I try different configurations, phrase different gen'l rules based on the specifics, try to work through the resulting possibilities to many/all logical and/or likely conclusions, often triggering emotions along the way, trying to figure out if THIS happened this time, wouldn't THAT happen next time, then noting reality when it swing back around again. My medium is often that of perspective, at times forced perspective: what would happen if'n I considered THIS as THAT? Hmm. Not really able to explain what I mean here & now. Altering mental constructs...can reveal interesting...somethings...not claiming they're truths (or rather Truths), but they can shed new light and sometimes help us (me) deal w/things easier, better, differently.
Sorta like right now when I'm taking feelings I identify as low/bleh/blah and use 'em to stimulate thought and (internal - infernal?) discussion and mental meanderings. To what end? Hell if I know. IT'S WHAT I DO.
Okay, 'nuff of this...off to the wide wonderful world of chores and errands and breaks at coffeeshops for diarying/journaling and reading and sipping hot bevs.
Getting out will be good. Stayed in my sock monkeys all day yesterday, not venturing out for anything, not even to get the mail. Listened to music (an assortment of pop&rock and then Mozart's last 5 symphonies), watched The Grifters (which I'd remembered as a different flim, somehow), started reading T. Pratchett's Thud, finished Bill Bryson's The Lost Continent and began his Neither Here Nor There - enjoying the latter more than the former, and began and completed ch 3 (Desire: Intoxication - Plant: MaryJane (sp)) from M Pollan's The Botany of Desire - really interesting perspective, great turns of phrase, fascinatingly well-written.
Some stuff from this last that particularly interested me include: the identification of the word/concept "meme" as a unit of memorable cultural information, as coined by Richard Dawkins in The Selfish Gene (1976); Samuel Taylor Coleridge's notion of the imagination as a mental faculty that dissolves, diffuses, and dissipates...in order to re-create. It's sorta how I imagine what goes on inside my head (perhaps also my heart): stuff comes in, gets assigned to various categories, then gets tested in other categories...I try different configurations, phrase different gen'l rules based on the specifics, try to work through the resulting possibilities to many/all logical and/or likely conclusions, often triggering emotions along the way, trying to figure out if THIS happened this time, wouldn't THAT happen next time, then noting reality when it swing back around again. My medium is often that of perspective, at times forced perspective: what would happen if'n I considered THIS as THAT? Hmm. Not really able to explain what I mean here & now. Altering mental constructs...can reveal interesting...somethings...not claiming they're truths (or rather Truths), but they can shed new light and sometimes help us (me) deal w/things easier, better, differently.
Sorta like right now when I'm taking feelings I identify as low/bleh/blah and use 'em to stimulate thought and (internal - infernal?) discussion and mental meanderings. To what end? Hell if I know. IT'S WHAT I DO.
Okay, 'nuff of this...off to the wide wonderful world of chores and errands and breaks at coffeeshops for diarying/journaling and reading and sipping hot bevs.
