Shifting Gears

[mlerules]

Was very recently hit yet again by a feeling I dislike immensely. Since this has happened again (and again), even though I've been able to work through it, I'm considering cutting it off at the source. If'n I cannot stop myself from having these feelings, than rather than dealing with them again and again perhaps I should put myself in a position where they won't be triggered. It'll prolly still take a while to get outta the now typical pathway/route/loop/circuit, but it might be easier to cut if off completely rather than put myself through it repeatedly (even if it gets a bit easier each time and doesn't last as long). I really don't need to keep hitting myself it in head with the two-by-four...so I'm trying to smack myself w/a clue-by-four and figure out if'n I'm better off being OUT of the sitch entirely so there's no excuse for any sorta expectation that I KNOW won't/can't/shouldn't be met/satisfied. Trying to balance the pros & cons. One of the pros is not dealing w/this BS anymore (once I can reach that point). One of the cons is having to deal w/this BS (unless/until I can STOP these feelings from arising). Beyond that...well, guess I've got more journal fodder for this next week away...

Realization: lack of patience can be helpful in ensuring that I don't put up w/too much sh!t for too long (even if'n it's my OWN sh!t, I needn't dwell in't for longer than necessary).