Healing & Spice
Feb. 2nd, 2012 10:22 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
mlerulesAyup. Healing's my goal for 2012. This eve helped lots. Really good, really deep talkies w/a Dear Friend tonight. Much useful and tasty food for thought. Not done yet, but finding it easier right now. Mutual appreciation, too, which makes it even better. PHEW!
Ah, I've been noticing lots of "phew!"-age recently. SIGHs of relief, of letting go, of getting sh!t out/off. Will continue w/this, as it's helpful.
I've been messing w/the metaphor of filters, noting that they're feeling (that I'm acting as if they're) clogged. Have wondered how to hose 'em off and clean 'em out, sorta like jacuzzi filters. Instead though, I'm gonna work on REPLACING 'em totally (like the air filter in your car - or like the jacuzzi filters which now and again need full replacement, even as they need routine maintenance hosing down as well).
So, what filters do I install now? Through what color glasses/lenses do I want to view/experience the world next? I want to retain/regain the ability/sensibility to appreciate wonder, joy, awe, and wonder, and I want to experience 'em more 'n' again, too. There's more though. Not ready (apparently ;-) to articulate what more/else right now. (Suggestions and/or possibilities welcomed. I'm happy to consider engaging in a dialogue rather than merely a monologue, or at least have s'more spice(s) to the brain's marination mixture.)
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I've thought so much through, my head's reached good conclusions and formed narratives that serve me decently. My heart's not caught up though. More healing must happen. Must reconcile the heart w/the head? Or something...
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Skimming 'n' skating w/out delving deeply. Not so much my way. Heh. Less analytical now then in the past, actually (believe it or not ;-)
I know why. And what. What I don't now is Now What. It's my choice (mixed w/fate and destiny and options/possibilities available). Will focus some on what drives my facilitation efforts, my desire to catalyze, my appreciation of helping realize/actualize potential, and the like. Hopefully this'll help me figure out Why, and from there, What Next. Along the way, I'll be dipping once again into Baltasar Gracián's The Art of Worldly Wisdom (tr Christopher Maurer).
Ah, I've been noticing lots of "phew!"-age recently. SIGHs of relief, of letting go, of getting sh!t out/off. Will continue w/this, as it's helpful.
I've been messing w/the metaphor of filters, noting that they're feeling (that I'm acting as if they're) clogged. Have wondered how to hose 'em off and clean 'em out, sorta like jacuzzi filters. Instead though, I'm gonna work on REPLACING 'em totally (like the air filter in your car - or like the jacuzzi filters which now and again need full replacement, even as they need routine maintenance hosing down as well).
So, what filters do I install now? Through what color glasses/lenses do I want to view/experience the world next? I want to retain/regain the ability/sensibility to appreciate wonder, joy, awe, and wonder, and I want to experience 'em more 'n' again, too. There's more though. Not ready (apparently ;-) to articulate what more/else right now. (Suggestions and/or possibilities welcomed. I'm happy to consider engaging in a dialogue rather than merely a monologue, or at least have s'more spice(s) to the brain's marination mixture.)
*******
I've thought so much through, my head's reached good conclusions and formed narratives that serve me decently. My heart's not caught up though. More healing must happen. Must reconcile the heart w/the head? Or something...
*******
Skimming 'n' skating w/out delving deeply. Not so much my way. Heh. Less analytical now then in the past, actually (believe it or not ;-)
I know why. And what. What I don't now is Now What. It's my choice (mixed w/fate and destiny and options/possibilities available). Will focus some on what drives my facilitation efforts, my desire to catalyze, my appreciation of helping realize/actualize potential, and the like. Hopefully this'll help me figure out Why, and from there, What Next. Along the way, I'll be dipping once again into Baltasar Gracián's The Art of Worldly Wisdom (tr Christopher Maurer).
