Communicating Beats Flailing

[mlerules]

Done flailing for now. Remembered/realized that if not knowing drives me buggy, I can always ask. And as soon as I did, I felt a huge load off. I may not like the answer(s). Heck, I may not even get straight answers (b'c there may just be lots unknown). But acknowledging (and communicating) my confusion and uncertainty feels better than keeping it all inside (or merely cryptically spewing on LJ ;-)

Mind you, I'm still not at all sure MYSELF what I want 'n' need. But I've got a better idea now. (The flailing helped me crystallize my thoughts 'n' feelings somewhat.) It's all quite complicated. Need it be? Dunno...

Woke up this morning w/some definite plans for the day: BAKING.

Feeling my positive energy spring starting to fill back up again...phew!