Success

[mlerules]

I put together the new chest of drawers and made yet another contribution to my IKEA Allen-wrench collection. If'n I were more artsy/craftsy, I'd create something...um, artistic. Adjectives 'n' other descriptive terms've apparently fled my brain for greener pastures elsewhere. Or they've taken wing in Vs across the skies as they migrate South for the Season.

One of the best parts of hiking lots lo these past 7 months has been tracing the seasons, watching 'em unfold and drift and merge together. 'Twas really cool on the final few hikes to hear the honking of the geese as they headed South and look up and see the Vs spreading across the sky.

Spring shifted into Summer and Summer into Fall more gradually then I thought they would. Right now I'm relishing the sunny cool days, as Fall happens w/its changing and falling leaves, w/more wetness and grey, yet still lots of brightness in the sky. It's not a dismal grey, at least now now. (We'll see how I feel in another few months ;-)

It's quite odd feeling as anti-social as I have been lots these days. Mebbe it's the weather/season. Not sure if'n this is usually when I find myself heading inward more and less available to/for the outside world. Could be. Helping it along though is definitely some of my current state of...fragility. Sometimes it ain't easy Looking Forward and Stepping Forward. Then I must remind myself that Baby Steps count as progress, even if'n it looks like I'm falling further and further behind. But behind what?

Figuring out What's Next. Choosing paths...yet this metaphor's not quite right, as I may end up blazing my own trail rather than following along a well-defined groove. Okay. Here's whassup. It's freakin' hard doing this on my own, w/out a partner whose hand I can reach out and hold and whose back I have (and vice versa). Yet I'm not alone. I've got good friends - GREAT friends - who reach out, who help out, who're there to help pick me up if'n I fall down rabbit holes 'n' need a hand getting back out again.

Ah, there 'tis. I've been sorta waiting for another rush of sorrow. 'Twas feeling odd not...well, I was gonna say sinking, but it's not like that...it's drifting for a time in nostalgia, returning to the past and that/those other future(s)/dream(s). But I don't want to wallow, or get mired down in the muck. Grieving and mourning and saying G'bye to Past Futures so I'm better able to set forth w/New Possibilities is fine. Getting stuck in What If's or Why or focusing on or in terms of blame/resentment (toward myself or others or the Universe) ain't wise or healthy, so I'm choosing to give this a miss.

Healthier 'n' wiser to try for patience & compassion, directed both toward myself and others. Now to transition from theory to regular practice. (Generally easier to practice what one preaches ;-) May I have success w/this as well as the physical stuff!

Comments

[vonvoncake.livejournal.com]

I've often said that Hekate's crossroads are not only a junction to another path but a place to rest and reflect, to just be without the pull of a path stretching out before you. And there's nothing behind you pushing you forward, to past you have to pay homage to, no promises to keep. Rest. Stay. Consider. Be. Enjoy the small circle of light Her torch throws in the center of the Crossroads and when you are ready, YOU can pick up that torch and move on. And maybe you just move on to a different Crossroads and rest there for a while.

Remember, not all is movement.

[mlerules.livejournal.com]

Thank you. I hadn't quite thought of things like this before. I'm so used to moving that I feel guilty sometimes when I sit for a spell. Mebbe 'tis time to sit still at the center of the labyrinth for a while.

[vonvoncake.livejournal.com]

Exactly.

[mlerules.livejournal.com]

Thank you again - this makes a HUGE difference in my well-being and I really appreciate it.

[vonvoncake.livejournal.com]

I'm glad. When I made this realization, it was huge in my own life. *hugs*

[darthsunshine.livejournal.com]

May I have success w/this as well as the physical stuff!

Yes indeed, may you (with both)!

[mlerules.livejournal.com]

Thx. :-)

[ladyegreen.livejournal.com]

You're very intuitive and thoughtful, of yourself and others. I hope that new paths open for you when you are ready for them and while in the quiet the quiet is a peace and clearing, that it is good to you.

Lots of love.

[mlerules.livejournal.com]

Thank you. And backatcha, fully.

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[quetz.livejournal.com]

http://www.betterlivingthroughdesign.com/furnishings/billy-wilder.html

While I'm at it...

[quetz.livejournal.com]

http://lolgod.blogspot.com/2010/06/ikea-krucifix.html

Re: While I'm at it...

[mlerules.livejournal.com]

HEE!

Re: hh

[mlerules.livejournal.com]

Cool - thx!

[clayshaper.livejournal.com]

Oh Oh Oh... if you will come get your sheepie bowls from me, I can take your IKEA keys and make a Mixed Media Painting for you... wouldn't that rock? a buncha IKEA allen wrenches/keys and any tidbit parts or things, on the canvas? I think that'd be awesome. >:)

*poke* You want the sheepie bowls, right? You need sheepie bowls! I can't mail them, because they're fragile- but I could mail you back the painting/meixed media work!

[clayshaper.livejournal.com]

Ya know, I would be really honoured if you would consider coming to Hecate's Sickle this year... we have a Pet Rite of Release, and it is a really interesting set of rituals this year- it might give you a chance to share grief (death isn't the only kind of grief, you know!) and also to have that meditative time, to listen to the gods/goddesses in the otherworld, and come back again, with new intentions and a fresh new skin to walk in.

I would really be honoured if you would just consider it. Registration is low this year, and Jim and I are both Clergy- everyone's clans will be small and intimate, allowing for a LOT of personal attention- that can sometimes make it REALLY special, as experiences go.

*hugs*

[mlerules.livejournal.com]

Whenzit?

[clayshaper.livejournal.com]

The 4th, 5th, and 6th of November. I know it is a little pricey (about 220 for the weekend I think?) but many people are going to carpool and share costs of driving and such, to help that.

It might help, let you release some of that GRIEF, you know? Life is really fucked up for a lot of people right now, and the release will be carrying a LOT of that away.

[mlerules.livejournal.com]

Ah - thx for thinking of me and suggesting it, but I've got an outta town visitor coming into town to visit that weekend, plus play tix for Sat, 11/5/11 in downtown PDX. Have a great time!

[clayshaper.livejournal.com]

This is the page, tho for some reason it's not loading for me right- it should have a link to the new online registration option!

http://www.aquariantabernaclechurch.org/hekates-sickle-festival