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mlerulesAnd then they're back, after over a day away. Everything can feel just fine. I can feel all back to normal - peppy, free, enthusiastic - and achieve full on BAPAMAP, and then BOOM, the sadness returns, the misery, the WTF?!, the sense of loss, the abyss widening and deepening, the questioning and the confusion and the pain and the overwhelming sadness.
I refuse to let it be too much (at least for too long), but I also refuse not to feel it.
What I miss most are the simple things: holding and being held close, feeling comforted by someone who cares, being at ease...simply joys, simply being together. I liked it. I miss it.
I refuse to let it be too much (at least for too long), but I also refuse not to feel it.
What I miss most are the simple things: holding and being held close, feeling comforted by someone who cares, being at ease...simply joys, simply being together. I liked it. I miss it.
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Date: 2011-09-30 07:19 am (UTC)I understand all too well and I sympathize. I miss sharing space, inside jokes, and meals. I hear it gets better. We shall see.
Be well.
Anon
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Date: 2011-09-30 08:39 am (UTC)I have had a bad day myself.... thankful for everything else that I have.
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Date: 2011-09-30 02:21 pm (UTC)I'd try to offer wisdom, but, honestly, I'm sure you've got more of that than I do. Just know my heart is with you while you grieve.
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