Glad To Be Home
Nov. 6th, 2007 07:26 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
mlerulesI've adored my time away of late. I've scheduled in Recovery/Relaxation periods. This has proven helpful/wise, as there's a certain amount of culture shock swapping 'tween On the Road and At Home. One of the best things about this schedule/life w/its repeatedly shifting There & Back Again = the contrast and appreciation for each due to being away from it for a spell. Absence makes the heart grow fonder. ... What's good for the goose is good for the gander. I'm all of a sudden taken back to high school where/when my step-dad would amuse us w/shaggy-dog stories. And I'm happy to be home. If home is where the heart is, the world's my oyster, to merrily mix metaphors and to joyfully split infinitives on a whim.
Thought topics tonight include:
Balancing convenience and safety w/expression and freedom. Rut vs. ritual. So much stuff. So many things. Purging ain't my strong suit. I pack-rat and squirrel far better and/or more often than I Spring clean. Feeling a need/urge/desire to do more of it. Um, the latter more than the former. I need to put things away and to institute systems, processes, and procedures. Can one get ISO9000 compliance (and/or a Martha Stewart merit badge) for home-life activities?
Also feeling an urge (but only now and again) to throw up my arms and run about, flailing and wailing and moaning and whingeing...over I'm really not at all sure what exactly. Mebbe it's just excess energy. 'Cause I've had a lot of that recently. Must needs channel this into productive activity. Luckily I'm home again now so can do just this. Yes. I like it here. I remember this muchly when I return. Even before then, though, I look forward to it, to being here, to taking care of things, to creating a nice space. It's got a ways to go. I've been gone a lot. And I need to be home more. So I must make choices.
Sometimes "making choices" is a matter of doing nothing and letting what will be be. Often this grates on me, as I want to be in control rather than being controlled. But circumstances will do what they will at times and there's not much I can do about certain things. [Feeling particularly and annoyingly inarticulate right now.] There's a line I'd like to find in a book, but I don't feel like browsing through on the off-chance I could find it or digging back through stacks of journals written over the past seven (7) years (although I'm pretty sure it's noted/quoted somewhere in the November 9, 2000 - October 2001 time period). It's about taking control of your life rather than getting tossed and turned by life's vicissitudes...w/really good ocean wave/tide imagery. Torn 'tween wanting to (a) exert control and (b) just getting my ducks in a row then opening up the door and letting the wind and sun and rain in to blow the leaves (and ducks) all around.
I've very much enjoyed spending time In the Woods recently. Mushrooms abound in the PacNW! Folks here have space and room and places to roam. Very exciting. I plan on exploring more: forests, rivers, mountains, hot springs...oh, yes...oysters and pearls and and and...
And now for something completely different. A confession: I have great procrastination tendencies. (Not great as in good/positive but great as in immense.) Gah. Must beat these down with a stick. Guess I'll put "get a big stick of wood and see if it floats" on the ToDo list. Later. ;-)
Onto other matters: I must soon make choices and decisions. Schedules matter. As does rate o' communication and intensity of feeling.
Damn. Confession: at times it's not being cryptic so much as being inarticulate.
Thought topics tonight include:
Balancing convenience and safety w/expression and freedom. Rut vs. ritual. So much stuff. So many things. Purging ain't my strong suit. I pack-rat and squirrel far better and/or more often than I Spring clean. Feeling a need/urge/desire to do more of it. Um, the latter more than the former. I need to put things away and to institute systems, processes, and procedures. Can one get ISO9000 compliance (and/or a Martha Stewart merit badge) for home-life activities?
Also feeling an urge (but only now and again) to throw up my arms and run about, flailing and wailing and moaning and whingeing...over I'm really not at all sure what exactly. Mebbe it's just excess energy. 'Cause I've had a lot of that recently. Must needs channel this into productive activity. Luckily I'm home again now so can do just this. Yes. I like it here. I remember this muchly when I return. Even before then, though, I look forward to it, to being here, to taking care of things, to creating a nice space. It's got a ways to go. I've been gone a lot. And I need to be home more. So I must make choices.
Sometimes "making choices" is a matter of doing nothing and letting what will be be. Often this grates on me, as I want to be in control rather than being controlled. But circumstances will do what they will at times and there's not much I can do about certain things. [Feeling particularly and annoyingly inarticulate right now.] There's a line I'd like to find in a book, but I don't feel like browsing through on the off-chance I could find it or digging back through stacks of journals written over the past seven (7) years (although I'm pretty sure it's noted/quoted somewhere in the November 9, 2000 - October 2001 time period). It's about taking control of your life rather than getting tossed and turned by life's vicissitudes...w/really good ocean wave/tide imagery. Torn 'tween wanting to (a) exert control and (b) just getting my ducks in a row then opening up the door and letting the wind and sun and rain in to blow the leaves (and ducks) all around.
I've very much enjoyed spending time In the Woods recently. Mushrooms abound in the PacNW! Folks here have space and room and places to roam. Very exciting. I plan on exploring more: forests, rivers, mountains, hot springs...oh, yes...oysters and pearls and and and...
And now for something completely different. A confession: I have great procrastination tendencies. (Not great as in good/positive but great as in immense.) Gah. Must beat these down with a stick. Guess I'll put "get a big stick of wood and see if it floats" on the ToDo list. Later. ;-)
Onto other matters: I must soon make choices and decisions. Schedules matter. As does rate o' communication and intensity of feeling.
Damn. Confession: at times it's not being cryptic so much as being inarticulate.
