Thoughts...the Anti-Goth (Super-Hero?)
Jul. 1st, 2007 12:07 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
mlerulesThere've gotta be some sane, together, guys or gals equipped w/carry-on luggage rather than a full set of matching (or motley) baggage out there somewhere. Who're SINGLE (for a change). And interested. And interesting.
Taking a moment to myself. Taking the evening and spending it home alone. Delightful. Appreciated that much more after being gone some. Not sure whether I'm sounding overly repetitive, but it really matters a whole bunch that I feel at home here. It hasn't taken that long to feel fairly comfortable here. Perhaps this shouldn't surprise me. Perhaps it doesn't. It does surprise me a bit, even if'n it shouldn't, but I made a good decision, followed through, and did something big that's turning out well. And I'm doing it alone. Well, okay, not alone...that's what's so nice, I don't feel alone...what a distinctly delightful feeling.
There're far more than 13 channels of sh!t to choose from nowadays.
Current channels rotate amongst several...but often come to rest upon a tried & untrue pattern I'm now working on consciously breaking. Sometimes you've told yourself (perhaps repeatedly) that X is so...and then there comes a time when you must accept it with your heart as well as your mind. That's where I'm at. Intuition. Truth. Decisions. Acceptance. Living w/doubt and lack of certainty ain't easy, but it's possible...and necessary b'c little is hard and fast. Love may be hard and fast, but manifestations of't ain't always. Is this when faith enters into the equation? Faith and trust. Steadfastness.
Now putting faith and trust into the desire (and perhaps need) to break patterns of behavior and thought, to try to institute new ones. Can/should one break a pattern without a considered alternative goal and/or route to follow and/or take? Sure! Comfort through chaos. Acceptance. Truth will emerge. (That's my assumption anyway.)
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Damn I'm glad to find a new musical turn-on source! *sigh of contentment* I can take a smidge of inspiration and a pinch of novelty and turn up the heat inside myself to boil.
Taking a moment to myself. Taking the evening and spending it home alone. Delightful. Appreciated that much more after being gone some. Not sure whether I'm sounding overly repetitive, but it really matters a whole bunch that I feel at home here. It hasn't taken that long to feel fairly comfortable here. Perhaps this shouldn't surprise me. Perhaps it doesn't. It does surprise me a bit, even if'n it shouldn't, but I made a good decision, followed through, and did something big that's turning out well. And I'm doing it alone. Well, okay, not alone...that's what's so nice, I don't feel alone...what a distinctly delightful feeling.
There're far more than 13 channels of sh!t to choose from nowadays.
Current channels rotate amongst several...but often come to rest upon a tried & untrue pattern I'm now working on consciously breaking. Sometimes you've told yourself (perhaps repeatedly) that X is so...and then there comes a time when you must accept it with your heart as well as your mind. That's where I'm at. Intuition. Truth. Decisions. Acceptance. Living w/doubt and lack of certainty ain't easy, but it's possible...and necessary b'c little is hard and fast. Love may be hard and fast, but manifestations of't ain't always. Is this when faith enters into the equation? Faith and trust. Steadfastness.
Now putting faith and trust into the desire (and perhaps need) to break patterns of behavior and thought, to try to institute new ones. Can/should one break a pattern without a considered alternative goal and/or route to follow and/or take? Sure! Comfort through chaos. Acceptance. Truth will emerge. (That's my assumption anyway.)
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Damn I'm glad to find a new musical turn-on source! *sigh of contentment* I can take a smidge of inspiration and a pinch of novelty and turn up the heat inside myself to boil.
