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mlerulesAnd the number of balls flying through the air increases just a little bit more. *mildly maniacal laughter* Part of me wants to rip up my life and toss it into the wind, a really strong wind, an East wind...to let the pieces fall where they may. For now though I'll just keep options open...even as I cull.
Is THIS part of why it's so hard to cull? Because things represent possibilities? What if I need X and I've gotten rid of it? Okay, then, should ask myself these qx: Is X replaceable? At what cost (time & energy & money)? How likely is this need to arise and/or how important would it be to satisfy that need - is it really merely a want that I can do without?
Sometimes I don't know what I want although I'm aware I want something. So I'll try something to see if'n that's it. Not the most efficient way of figuring things out, but better than just going on as before w/out trying to figure it out. Sometimes analysis won't suffice. Sometimes action - even if just attempted action - is required.
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Just got off the phone w/a Dear Friend. Damn good timing for reconnection, too.
Perpetual self-indulgence doesn't make me feel guilty (usually). I want to live a life of Mutually Assured Construction.
Is THIS part of why it's so hard to cull? Because things represent possibilities? What if I need X and I've gotten rid of it? Okay, then, should ask myself these qx: Is X replaceable? At what cost (time & energy & money)? How likely is this need to arise and/or how important would it be to satisfy that need - is it really merely a want that I can do without?
Sometimes I don't know what I want although I'm aware I want something. So I'll try something to see if'n that's it. Not the most efficient way of figuring things out, but better than just going on as before w/out trying to figure it out. Sometimes analysis won't suffice. Sometimes action - even if just attempted action - is required.
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Just got off the phone w/a Dear Friend. Damn good timing for reconnection, too.
Perpetual self-indulgence doesn't make me feel guilty (usually). I want to live a life of Mutually Assured Construction.
