Food Talk / Depths to Plumb / Rambling
Jan. 5th, 2025 08:46 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
mlerulesI used to enjoy LJ greatly, prattling on about this and that, using this as a space to journal my thoughts and track my feelings (and see what other folks posted, too). In the process, it helped me get to know a bunch of other people (initially) and then, because the timing was right, to maintain contact with SoCal folks when I moved to the PacNW (and get to know PacNW folks better, too).
FB's easier to access and post to, but that doesn't mean it's a better experience, just different. For me, it's far more for posting photos on the fly and sharing interesting/worthwhile/funny links and/or pics than journalling. Some folks use it differently, I know. For some, FB may satisfy the needs that LJ used to satisfy for me. FB fails to scratch some social/connection itch I had/have that LJ did.
I enjoyed the freeform writing. The responses, too. Not sure what else. Mebbe I miss the depths I used to plumb, the lengths I'd go to figure stuff out. Hmm, Was it worthwhile, or simply a habit - a frame of mind, a way to approach the world (analyze the crap outta everything) I picked up in and/or honed by law school? Dunno.
I have a strong sense of connection with various folks who I meet through various venues, including LJ. Perhaps part of LJ's usefulness was related to where I was in my life. (Thinking 'bout leaving SoCal for the PacNW, although I'd been considering it since at least 1990 and didn't do it until 2007.)
The BF who introduced me to LJ 20 years back (almost to the day) recently died, unexpectedly. We'd last communicated about a month previous, via IG msgr, just a few lines back and forth about some funky health issues he was having. Then, boom, he up and died. I didn't go to his memorial last week. It was too far away, and I already had other travel plans with various people. Sad that he's no longer here with us, even though I'd not seen him in years. Now I won't ever again. It's odd (or sad, or something) how folks wander in and out of your life.
Meander: it really felt odd when I discovered that someone with whom I thought I had a deep/strong connection with didn't feel the same way. Did I misread something? I think I assumed something based on our interactions that apparently wasn't mutual. Fascinating.
I care to know people deeply. (But do I?) I like broadening my mind and enriching my own life by learning how other folks view the world, how they think, what they feel, blahblahblah... I crave intimacy / connection, and this feels like one way to reach (achieve?) it.
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Re Food Talk. I want toast. I'm not hungry, I just want it because it's pleasurable, satisfying in some way. Yet I want to regain prior higher levels of energy and stamina and strength, which means I need and want to eat more sensibly (less driven by whims and/or desire(s)). So I shan't have toast. Or a maple sugar candy. I can do this, but it'll require vigilance until I shift out of old habits.
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A Sensitive Soul. Mebbe more on this later...
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This is a tough time right now. Lotsa uncertainty. Potential for great loss. Narrowing my focus. Circling my wagons? Not sure what I need or how to get it.
FB's easier to access and post to, but that doesn't mean it's a better experience, just different. For me, it's far more for posting photos on the fly and sharing interesting/worthwhile/funny links and/or pics than journalling. Some folks use it differently, I know. For some, FB may satisfy the needs that LJ used to satisfy for me. FB fails to scratch some social/connection itch I had/have that LJ did.
I enjoyed the freeform writing. The responses, too. Not sure what else. Mebbe I miss the depths I used to plumb, the lengths I'd go to figure stuff out. Hmm, Was it worthwhile, or simply a habit - a frame of mind, a way to approach the world (analyze the crap outta everything) I picked up in and/or honed by law school? Dunno.
I have a strong sense of connection with various folks who I meet through various venues, including LJ. Perhaps part of LJ's usefulness was related to where I was in my life. (Thinking 'bout leaving SoCal for the PacNW, although I'd been considering it since at least 1990 and didn't do it until 2007.)
The BF who introduced me to LJ 20 years back (almost to the day) recently died, unexpectedly. We'd last communicated about a month previous, via IG msgr, just a few lines back and forth about some funky health issues he was having. Then, boom, he up and died. I didn't go to his memorial last week. It was too far away, and I already had other travel plans with various people. Sad that he's no longer here with us, even though I'd not seen him in years. Now I won't ever again. It's odd (or sad, or something) how folks wander in and out of your life.
Meander: it really felt odd when I discovered that someone with whom I thought I had a deep/strong connection with didn't feel the same way. Did I misread something? I think I assumed something based on our interactions that apparently wasn't mutual. Fascinating.
I care to know people deeply. (But do I?) I like broadening my mind and enriching my own life by learning how other folks view the world, how they think, what they feel, blahblahblah... I crave intimacy / connection, and this feels like one way to reach (achieve?) it.
*****
Re Food Talk. I want toast. I'm not hungry, I just want it because it's pleasurable, satisfying in some way. Yet I want to regain prior higher levels of energy and stamina and strength, which means I need and want to eat more sensibly (less driven by whims and/or desire(s)). So I shan't have toast. Or a maple sugar candy. I can do this, but it'll require vigilance until I shift out of old habits.
******
A Sensitive Soul. Mebbe more on this later...
******
This is a tough time right now. Lotsa uncertainty. Potential for great loss. Narrowing my focus. Circling my wagons? Not sure what I need or how to get it.
