Possible Breakthrough
Aug. 23rd, 2005 02:11 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
mlerulesThis one's in heavy rotation (from a personal geological time-line perspective) and may be what's up yet again, despite my repeated stated intention NOT to fall into the same trap again. I do NOT want to hand the keys/reins to my happiness to another. It's not fair for anybody. With power comes responsibility. Such power must be earned, not given away lightly. And such control must be desired. And the knowledge/fact of taking it on must be granted, explained & understood. Otherwise it's an unfair (not to mention exceedingly unwise) abdication of responsibility for your own dang-blamed self. It's up to YOU to figure out what it takes, not others. If they're willing to try, that's perhaps okay, but you better be guiding them along the way. (How do you put emotional safe words into place w/yourself? Guess I sorta did, by thinking 'bout my keys/reins analogy which triggered thinking 'bout my current sitch and whether it fits the time-worn scenario, at least in part.)
I hereby pick up the reins of my life and give 'em a shake. Pulling back for a moment, stopping the carriage for the moment. Then I'll gee-up and get going again, looking out for bridges out, potholed roads, and unmarked detours, trying to figure out where to head and how best to get there. (Slapping a "Not All Who Wander Are Lost" bumper-sticker on the back for good measure).
The head contains worm-holes: you can get from here to way-the-fark-over-there w/out taking the normal/logical paths, leaping to conclusions, flying off handles, forging paths where nobody really has any reason to go. This ain't always bad, but it can be, if it's hot, gassy, and filled w/ROUS droppings and traps. Best avoided.
If I hand the keys of my happiness to another, even temporarily, and they fark it up - or LOSE 'EM, then I'm taking 'em back. Feels better putting this into words...into action. Thinking IS acting/doing. As is doing what flows from the thinking 'bout it.
Must off to bed.
I hereby pick up the reins of my life and give 'em a shake. Pulling back for a moment, stopping the carriage for the moment. Then I'll gee-up and get going again, looking out for bridges out, potholed roads, and unmarked detours, trying to figure out where to head and how best to get there. (Slapping a "Not All Who Wander Are Lost" bumper-sticker on the back for good measure).
The head contains worm-holes: you can get from here to way-the-fark-over-there w/out taking the normal/logical paths, leaping to conclusions, flying off handles, forging paths where nobody really has any reason to go. This ain't always bad, but it can be, if it's hot, gassy, and filled w/ROUS droppings and traps. Best avoided.
If I hand the keys of my happiness to another, even temporarily, and they fark it up - or LOSE 'EM, then I'm taking 'em back. Feels better putting this into words...into action. Thinking IS acting/doing. As is doing what flows from the thinking 'bout it.
Must off to bed.
