Singing Out

[mlerules]

Currently popping an emotional boil. Pressure's built up (w/out my particularly noticing). Apparently my intuitive self has gone AWOL. Off gallivanting around w/my libido, most likely.

Time to pop it, drain out the pus aka bile, and continue the healing. Phew! Glad to spin this positively rather than feel tremendous guilt for't.

Mewlings: So much of me is bound up in others. Feeling a need to reclaim loneliness (wrong word - negative connotation ain't appropriate), to reclaim (and honor and cherish) my inner introvert. Whilst maintaining D.C. all the while. [D.C. = Diplomatic Correctness/Social Sensitivity)

Fully aware I'm time privileged.

I like intensity (hence my passion for passion and propensity for surrounding myself w/passionate people).

Feeling torn. Wanting to stay local, but how local is local? Spreading myself thin. Wearing myself out. Need to do more of this...or less...or something.

Needing to get the sap flowing s'more. Need to stop patterns in their tracks, re-route ruts, get my water labyrinth tattoo, complete my next compilation (Healing 2012).

Taking today for myself. Pleased for getting stuff done. All it took was, as usual, putting on music.

Soon to zoom. Ready, willing, and able to do so tomorrow. Back in a week-ish. Around(ish) for a while then.

Comments

[ladydrakaina.livejournal.com]

I have not figured out how to reclaim the alone time, it still feels miserable for me, wish this was an easier problem to solve for both of us!

[mlerules.livejournal.com]

Hopefully we'll both/each figure it out. Today ended up being pretty good.

Hope Music Man goes/went great! Sad to miss it, but figure i'll see ya' in another musical another time. :-)

[ladydrakaina.livejournal.com]

I'll probably do it again next year, since I know I'll be at school through June 13