It's Early...
Oct. 24th, 2011 07:52 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
mlerulesand I'm up and at it. It seems to work best at times (such as right now) not to think too much but just to do stuff. It's chilly outside (43). It's nice 'n' toasty warm inside (66 and rising). Hot tea's made and getting sipped. The ToDo list awaits, and I'll tackle it today. Won't get everything done, but I'll complete chunks.
Looking around, I can see the difference that doing sh!t makes. I shall continue to make progress and institute processes 'n' procedures to keep piles down blahblahblah I'm not gonna worry about or concern myself with Long-Term right now. Instead'm gonna stick to Here & Now and short-term. I wanna keep balls rolling and not stop 'n' stew too much, although I will continue now 'n' again pondering and cogitating and reflecting as it feels appropriate.
Who am I apart from others? Well, I'm a social creature, so I'm not even sure that's a valid question. Lotsa thoughts swirling around now...not coalescing into sentences though. Or even sentence fragments. Certainly not sentient fragments...
Right now I'm feeling calm, at peace. Damn - this is such a good/positive sensation!
I've been feeling...a bit...lost. I lost my way. I had an idea of where I was headed, and now that's shifted, only TO WHAT isn't clear. Heck - it wasn't clear before, but that was okay b'c the company was known. Now it's just me (well, and my friends, good friends, Dear Friends, acquaintances-who-may-become-friends, &c.)
I find it quite odd that I just teared up as a line from the 23rd Psalm ran through my head. (Yeah, it's actually quite odd that anything from the Bible ran through my head at all, but 'twas read aloud at a funeral I attended a few days ago, so it's fairly fresh in my mind.)
Zip. Zoom. Have I become somewhat inured to heart-ache? It's not hurting as much as I think perhaps it should. Hmm. No. Not gonna worry that something's wrong w/me. It's just how I'm handling this particular r-ship shift and the related shifts in my life. The big difference 'tween this and most of my other heart-aches is that I've got a far stronger, wider network of support helping me through this. THIS makes a huge, marvelous difference and I'm very thankful for it. Very much so.
And so I'll get on w/my day and see where it leads...and where I'll go...
Looking around, I can see the difference that doing sh!t makes. I shall continue to make progress and institute processes 'n' procedures to keep piles down blahblahblah I'm not gonna worry about or concern myself with Long-Term right now. Instead'm gonna stick to Here & Now and short-term. I wanna keep balls rolling and not stop 'n' stew too much, although I will continue now 'n' again pondering and cogitating and reflecting as it feels appropriate.
Who am I apart from others? Well, I'm a social creature, so I'm not even sure that's a valid question. Lotsa thoughts swirling around now...not coalescing into sentences though. Or even sentence fragments. Certainly not sentient fragments...
Right now I'm feeling calm, at peace. Damn - this is such a good/positive sensation!
I've been feeling...a bit...lost. I lost my way. I had an idea of where I was headed, and now that's shifted, only TO WHAT isn't clear. Heck - it wasn't clear before, but that was okay b'c the company was known. Now it's just me (well, and my friends, good friends, Dear Friends, acquaintances-who-may-become-friends, &c.)
I find it quite odd that I just teared up as a line from the 23rd Psalm ran through my head. (Yeah, it's actually quite odd that anything from the Bible ran through my head at all, but 'twas read aloud at a funeral I attended a few days ago, so it's fairly fresh in my mind.)
Zip. Zoom. Have I become somewhat inured to heart-ache? It's not hurting as much as I think perhaps it should. Hmm. No. Not gonna worry that something's wrong w/me. It's just how I'm handling this particular r-ship shift and the related shifts in my life. The big difference 'tween this and most of my other heart-aches is that I've got a far stronger, wider network of support helping me through this. THIS makes a huge, marvelous difference and I'm very thankful for it. Very much so.
And so I'll get on w/my day and see where it leads...and where I'll go...
