Fark It, I'm DONE

[mlerules]

Phew! Dunno how long it'll last, but for now, I'm done w/spinning and feeling bad and feeling down. I've said all I need to say enough time (although not to all to whom I wanna say it.) It's OVER. It's done with. Things didn't work out. Sometimes they don't. It's really too bad. It's incredibly sad, actually. Yet perhaps 'twas inevitable. (Thinking/saying it's so helps some, regardless of its veracity.)

We all tell stories 'bout our lives. They're our Truth(s). (Yeah yeah, I'm repeating myself once again here.) Our stories no longer mesh. So it's time for me to compose new ones. And so the cast of characters varies. Priorities shift. Directions on the compass spin...and land here, at home, where I am. This is where I am and this is where I want to be.

What's next? It's a Mystery!

Comments

[fjorlief.livejournal.com]

yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery...
today is a gift, that's why it's called the present!

couldn't resist that bit of doggerel that I carry around with me, seemed appropriate...

[ladyegreen.livejournal.com]

What's next is what keeps me carrying on.

Hopefully what's next will be wonderful to you.

[ignusfaatus.livejournal.com]

I love mysteries.

That Stills song is a mystery. Looks like it was recorded in 68 informally.... can you slide a copy of it my way?

[mlerules.livejournal.com]

Yeah, it's not easy to find. I'll gladly send you a CD w/it 'n' some other stuff soon(ish).

[fiddledragon]

*hugs*

[jimkeller.livejournal.com]

:: hugs ::

And remember, once you're done grieving and moving on, the joy of the time when it still worked can still echo forward from your past. The mistake we make is thinking that it should still be like that now, instead of realizing that life is about change and there's nothing wrong with that.

[mlerules.livejournal.com]

True. The fact that there was so much joy and goodness from the r-ship is a big chunk of what makes it hurt so much to have it end. There may not be anything "wrong" with change, but the mechanics/method of how change comes about can be better or worse, TMM.

Much of my annoyance and frustration is b'c I really would've liked to have had the chance to work on issues rather than have had stuff build up (w/out discussion or notice) and then be told It's Over w/out having had a chance to try to work things out. 'Specially when so much lip service had been given to the importance of raising and addressing small things precisely so they wouldn't snowball and become big huge things. *frustrated sigh at being blindsided*

[mlerules.livejournal.com]

Thx.

[mlerules.livejournal.com]

:-) Very much so. Thx for sharing.

[nomilomi.livejournal.com]

You are an awesome protagonist for your Story!

[mlerules.livejournal.com]

Thx, sweetie!

[vonvoncake.livejournal.com]

Good on ya. As for inevitable, there are a million different universes where it could have come out differently, but you're here and creating a great life for yourself right here. You inspire me.

[mlerules.livejournal.com]

Why thank you. May your paths take you were you want 'n' need to be!

[deviantgrrrl.livejournal.com]

Ah, but the very fact that it did happen this way tells you how futile those efforts would've been, whether or not there was an advertisement for something else...